Tracking points

Today I decided to start tracking my points again and I am feeling better for it so far I am eating healthy but Iust get into a routine of talking once a day even isf it's around the block I have to challenge my self push my self just a little and tell my self I can do this and don't listen to negative people which is my down fall!!

I know this will make me feel better 

So each day is a CHALLENGE 🐶

Feeling blessed

Thursday my Cataract went well, thank God I can not believe the brightness ...it's a wonderful thing what can be done with the eyes.

We take our body for granted when it starts to fall apart it's a horrible feeling ...

I hate having diabetetic but each day is a challenge with it, the main thing is stay away from stress !!

Off to rest and be grateful to god for my eye site back 🌸

Time Moves on

The weather is  becoming much cooler, Easter is only a few weeks away and life is quite busy, Next week I have my operation on my eye and the following week see the specialist for my knee, time waits for no one, Just wishing I was feeling better.
My days are slower as my back still is in a lot of pain despite pain killers, the Dr thinks it could be a disk again, and I am praying it is not, had CT Scan done and get the results back Monday.
I have given Face book up for lent, I need to focus more on my spiritual life and prayer life, and have quietness and meditation which is very good for the soul, be more open to the lord and wait to see what my future holds, Knowing God has my future in his hands..
I am missing my son Ben who is in Melbourne but we Skype and we keep in touch by phone most of the time.
This morning I meet up with two friends for coffee and it was a great morning to just veg out and laugh and be my self, it is so good to have friends, who are open and caring and are not judgemental, life is about caring and loving each other, and being their for each other
I pray your WEEK is a good one,
Joanne

All hours of the morning

It is 4.30 am in the morning,have been awake since 2am, not in pain thank God just sugar level up, so had a bit more insulin and a Apple 🐶

My friend Roslyn would be 50 today she passed away last February,I still miss her she was a beautiful friend and I pray she is at peace now with God:

A busy week I have to have a CT Scan on Tuesday for my lower back thank God the pain killers I have seem to have the pain under control ..

I was able to make Mass sat A very needed part of my life, if I didn't have God in my life I don't know where I would be, 🌿

 I might get a few hours sleep so will sign off till next time

Joanne💕

Prayer is the activity especially intended for making fervent acts of charity. During prayer the soul lovingly meets with God. A soul that loves God does so with a pure heart; a heart that loves Him so much that it seeks only after His glory and His will. The prayer of a soul that loves God forgets itself and is ready to sacrifice every wish for Him. Its love grows stronger and will continue to grow as it performs all its actions with a whole heart and with all of its capacity for goodwill. A soul devoted to loving God has made the one necessary resolution in prayer which is to be recollected. Only then is it able to give itself entirely to God.

Time out

Today I did go to the Dr. and told him how I had to go to emergence at the hospital on Sunday with shocking back pain, couldn't walk, which made me scream with the angry pain in my lower back .
so More pain killers, God I pray they don't make me ill like the last lost, and have to have a CT Scan on Tuesday, so in the mean time I HAVE TO just rest AND bear what every my day brings/ no doing a thing,
I was thinking while I was sitting having lunch that we do not appreciate our bodies till something goes wrong ..God has given us a body to be gentle to, to look after and keep fit and well ..I am trying to lose weight and not do the things I shouldn't do but it is difficult now I can not walk because of this pain...These tablets I am on are suppose to make me sleepy, so far I am not sleepy but I pray and just sit in the stillness, and Turn it all over to God, and know I am going to get better.

I need to learn to just relax and know what ever happens it is all in the Lords hands, and I have to learn to trust him more, when I trust my world is better .

My days have been nothing but hell the last three weeks, if not more, but it is like this great horrible dark hole I am living in, no reason to live, no reason to survive, to stay at home all day sleep or cry, continues pain, which isn't helping, wondering why am I suffering so much, the though of going to visit or get out of the house is a great burden, to the extent that nothing at all interests me.

Why is this  happening, why do I fret for the life I had which was good to now, spiritual and loving my God and know where to go in my faith, now it all seems like a dark night with no consolation for my soul, my prayers, my Rosary's and my love for God and Our; Lady has died.

Things have got so bad I have closed my face book account it even upset me I can not stop crying Could this be a depression that isn't going to leave me::"? or is it a spiritual attack "? Either way I don't know what it is and I do not like it,

So I just try and get through each day the best way I can, and Pray that my mood will change for the better and looking forward to Spring..