My days have been nothing but hell the last three weeks, if not more, but it is like this great horrible dark hole I am living in, no reason to live, no reason to survive, to stay at home all day sleep or cry, continues pain, which isn't helping, wondering why am I suffering so much, the though of going to visit or get out of the house is a great burden, to the extent that nothing at all interests me.

Why is this  happening, why do I fret for the life I had which was good to now, spiritual and loving my God and know where to go in my faith, now it all seems like a dark night with no consolation for my soul, my prayers, my Rosary's and my love for God and Our; Lady has died.

Things have got so bad I have closed my face book account it even upset me I can not stop crying Could this be a depression that isn't going to leave me::"? or is it a spiritual attack "? Either way I don't know what it is and I do not like it,

So I just try and get through each day the best way I can, and Pray that my mood will change for the better and looking forward to Spring..