I have been absent from my Journal, for a number of reasons, mainly because I HAVE had so much happening in my life,a lot of sadness, that led to negative feelings, and a lot of issues with my health, that led me to become depressed, and spirituality I was in no space to do any thing, except be angry and frustrated, cry and yell...so I have learnt in the last two weeks, to not be negative to my self or my friends, not be angry because of a family break down,it is better to walk away from that where there is negativity in all that, and to stay with my own family and be positive.....and give it all to God, and let him deal with it!

My challenge now is to really work on my weight and try and get some off, to help me with my knee!! when to the specialist the other day and he said it was a knee replacement!! I said now, but since them, I have realised the pain is becoming worse, since walking and this morning I walked another 50 min and boy am I paying for it now!! But through all this pain I am determined it is going to make my knee better, but I am told from other people it is doing more damage!! Either way I don't want a operation, but I might have to eat my words.

So I continue to count points, stay positive and walk each day, maybe by some Miracle the pain might go ...well for now I am putting my leg up with an ice pack on my knee, and resting today, as its storming and might do some reading ....

See what next week brings!