A new week

Fr Paul Gardiner sj

Well so far my two shakes a day have been good, I seem to have more energy and happy to say my eating is becoming a point system...to the point I feel I am losing weight..wont weigh my self till the end of the week...just keep going..and know it is coming off, so happy to be going to a birthday party in three weeks time and then on to my cousin, in Wombat, for a few days, which I am so looking forward to going, as it is good to have time out..

We have had some lovely rain, which is so much appreciated...now it would be nice for some sunny weather...

The canonisation of our New saint Mary of the Cross,was so wonderful to watch, to think Australia has our first saint..it so wonderful and to think I also saw my Cousin Fr Paul Gardiner, who had a lot to do with the pushing of her to be saint...so we are so proud of him,and to see him sitting up at the canonisation, all the family were so proud of him...

Well no more from me this week, I will continue to pray for all my friends.....

a week that is neally over...

I will be so please to see this week over, I have felt that I have really being tested by God, and I don't think I passed..but I pick my self up again and continue,and pray next week will be better..

With a sick husband, who continues, to keep losing weight and still has bad head aches, as I am writing this now he is not well ....and two of my children having a fall out, and myself with continues pain in my back to the degree some days I Can hardly walk with it.....I would like to just wake up one day and feel alive and human and be able to run a Marathon....but it is not to be, maybe this is my cross, so I know I must just take one day at a time, and know I will never be a saint like Mary Mackillop, but pray she helps me to accept what crosses I do have.

As for my walking and dieting it is getting there,!! counting points and watching what I am eating I have lost 1kg this week,which has made me feel good, I have to walk for at least 20 min, depending on my pain, but it hurts more when I have finished the walk, .I am over Dr's and specialists...am going to try Acupuncture and see if this relieves the pain!,

Well enough from me today, I have to go and get my self motoviated, and go up town and look for an out fit for my sons graduation in November,hard to beleive he has finished year twelve, it is hard to adjust to having no children now at school!!

I might go and get some brouchers on travelling to Rome ...ah that would be something to aim for in the next 18 months..!!

Just another day

After a bad night sleep, bad winds, during the night, I am up to the sun shining and the winds are still bad.

yesterday Was a bad day, but today well it has to be better.
Chloe is in the kitchen baking a cake at 14min past 8 to take to her friends place for his birthday today...so sweet, she is a thoughful daughter...

I started at a good point yesterday back on diet, well not excatly diet, hate that word!! but counting points, and I did do well considering, maybe that is why I was out of sorts yestday,becasue I was being careful to what I ate...it isnt going to hurt me.....just make me irritable till I get back into the habit for eating right again...every thing was annoying me, even my friends..not good! Maybe it is time I thought of going on a retreat....well only thinking..

In November David and I are going to PeakHill for a 25th birthday party,looking forward to that, Have never been to PeakHill, its near Dubbo... it should be interesting...

Ben has started His HSC and so far he seems happy, had done Buisness studies, and papaer one english, and monday another english paper....so far so good, he seems happy so that is the main thing.

Hope all have a great weekend, dont forget to watch T.V TOMORROW night Our first saint MARY MACKILLOP ....AN EXCITING time for Australia, also if you have time to long into Road to Rome, for their blog each day and great photos.

Till later,
cheers.....

Mary McKillop

Mother Mary McKillop, going to be our first Australian saint... Many Australians have travelled to Rome for her Canonisation on the 17Th Oct,

Pray for us Mary, as we as we also continue our journey on life, Give us courage to keep going..and Not give up...

looking forward to a break

After so many weeks of not feeling well, at long last I was able to get antibiotics, for the infection, and now am starting to feel my old self again..at least I am not sleeping like I was all the time~~

Tomorrow David and I head out of Sydney for two night cruise..so looking forward to it, even though it is only two night it is good to get away, to have time to our self's and relax, and recharge our batteries..IT is only from Sydney to Newcastle....

Today it Fathers day and Chloe and Shannon came home and they have made home made pizzas for lunch, and for tea a nice baked roast lamb for tea..ah nice to have all the family home and be able to have family quality time together.

Benjamin informs me this morning he only has 3 weeks left of school! where have those years gone?...

I have put my weight on hold, which I should not have done, but I have promised to get back to walking and doing my points every day after the cruise,at least spring is here and nice weather to walk, despite the magpies~~ and today the winds are just unbearable, a good day to dry the washing~~

I had a beautiful day yesterday in Maitland for the first sat, with many friends to catch up with and mass and talks, with fr James, and a lovely lunch together, pleases continue to keep fr James in your prayers, as he faces, weeks of uncertainty.~~

Well all from me for now, better go and pack that port, leaving at 7 in the morning and shannon and chloe are driving us to newcastle where we catch the Happy Cabbie, leaving newcastle at 9 20, shipe to sail out of sydney at 4pm. till next time~~

Joanne

Wondering when I might feel my old self again

ITS Sunday, here I sit in a beautiful sunny room, with the sun streaming in, and still feeling not my self, why is my head spinning and I am still tied, tied tied tied, I went off my medication hoping it would make a difference, nothing is making a difference, just feeling unwell, bad nights no sleep, with pain, and days of just spaced out wondering when this is every going to end, trying to focus on what I should do next, well its Sunday so I am doing nothing!

Broke my diet last night we went to a 50Th, meal was nice, but not what I call healthy food, deep fried and baked dinner, although we didn't know any one there, it was nice to go out, but by 9am I was ready for bed, we got home around 10 and I went to bed to be awake each hour to two hours....how frustrating...how annoying I want sleep and it wont come....well life goes one and if I do nothing today so be it, just read a good book...maybe a little cat nap...if my eyes allow it..I am starting to think medications are bad for the body, esp anti depressions, they do the reverse to the body, so one can not be alert..well that is what happened to me, so it will be interesting when I see the dr on thrusday what he says when I tell him I went off my medication..

ITs the 1st august another week upon us...maybe this week will bring exciting changes in my life....

Another day another hour,

I am really starting be be over winter, and feeling cold all the time, but yesterday and last night I don't think I could have felt worse....A shocking night, nausea, bad head,. I don't feel any better today, but I forced my self out of bed and made the bed so I wouldn't get back into it!!

I was awake when David walked in the door at 1.15am from work, to his dismay asking me why I was still awake! and even had cleaned my room, folded up cloths put them back in there rightful place, believe me when your feeling sick like I was at 1 this morning I felt the room had to be clean as I though If I don't wake up and least they will find me in a clean room! I have never felt as sick as I did early hours of the morning...

My son Informs me it is only three weeks till his 18Th, I have to get my act together and order the cake, we have booked the venue and invites have gone, out, and I have that to look forward to and our three day cruise in September!! I say bring on spring, winter isn't my favorite any more!!

Well maybe tomorrow will be a better day for me..life goes on

A new day

Even though I haven been here for a while I have decided to come back and share what has been happening in my life!!

I have had my ups and downs, with a shocking back, and depression set in and back to the Dr I went to sort out medication, now they have me on a new tablet only been on for 2 weeks, still not feeling my old bubble self, feeling emotional, physical not well, spiritually I am doing well (I will talk on that further down)

As I sit here at my desk looking out the window with the sun breaming in on me, I think of all the wonderful things that have happened in my life, my family and my friends, even though in the last few weeks one friend, turned on me, It hurt, but she knows no better, I need to let her go, and know God can take care of her, he is the judge, and I am not to judge. Life goes one...

I am blessed in so many ways with my spritual director, who is leading me closer to God, and this help in my spiritual life, with my emotions it is hard to focus on my weight and try and lose it, even though I have promised my self I will walk for thrirth minutes each day, no matter what, and Know I will be better for it...and it will make me strong as each day I wake up to.

In May David and my self went on a cruise, it was nice, even though I got quite sick....but did enjoy our self, and it was great to get off the boat as we did the same cruise last year and couldnt get off it as it was the swin flu ship! we still enjoyed our selfs, despite getting off the ship.. \

well all from me for now but will post some photos up of our cruise

till next time

Joanne

A beautiful sunny day...

well despite only one more week to go till I have my knee done, I am happy to say today is a beautiful day,and the sun is shinning, and it is just good to be alive.

I didnt make it to ww this week but weight my self at home and have lost1.3 this week with out trying, only eating what I am supposed to eat.

Feels good, and well it is only 27 days till our cruise, so am excited about that and about going shopping for cloths and shoes next week, ...

We have been invited to a 21st on the 1st May the day after my operation, I should be up to it and happy to be able to go...now to buy a present!! it for a boy any suggestions for pressents????

well not much more I hope all have a blessed and happy long weekend

Not doing so good but getting there..!!

Even though I am able to walk, I have been watching what I AM eating and counting my points, it is difficult when you knee gives way, so on the 30th of this month I am going to hospital and they are going to do key hole surgery,I need to be mindful as WE ARE going on a cruise in a few weeks so want to be able to walk on the ship and when we get off the ship.AS THE LAST TIME WE WENT on the cruise it was the Swin Flu Ship!! so we couldnt get off!!

MY weight is frustrating me big time, by my scales I am only 91 Kg and by ww scales I am 93.3 a big difference, so as you can see I am very frustrated,and it annoyes me now as we only have one meeting and that is on a night time..they chloes the morning meeting..I weigh better in the morning!!

I had a nice day sunday,with my friend up at muswellbrook, here is a photo of us both after we had a coffee and lunch ..we were both at mass as we got the blessing for the St John Vianney prayer group..

I am going up to day to muswellbrook to see a friend and then see annette also, it is a nice day here, but chilli a little.

well hopefull this week at ww will show a difference in my weight..

I can not do what I am doing and keep Positive:))

Going to Mass at Muswellbrook for a Blessing for the St John Vianney prayer Group was wonderful, Fr James, give the blessing and said a beautiful mass,our photos on the steps of St James Catholic Chruch Muswellbrook...

This group is open to every one, one prayer and one sacrifice, for all priests all over the world, they need our prayers and sacrifices, for they struggle, for those that have fallen, need our prayers also, they are only human.. we need our priest, for with out them we would not suvive, with out Mass, councilling, and reconcillation..it is a great sacrement, we all need it.


If you are interest in joining this group, please by all means let me know and I can get the forms to you.
we will all continue to pray for each other

God bless

Todays a new day....

Even though last week was bad, this week will be better, going to the Dr in the morning to see why i have this cough after six months...didn't sleep last night and was very high with a fever and temp. but today is a bit better.

The weight is finally coming off last week I lost another .7 and felt good, going to be a good week again this week, I have been walking each day, bar one day for heavy rains, today I will go out in the evening as it is boiling hot again today,we had to put the AC on and cool the play down,but more storms and rain are predicted,I dont mind the storms I like to listern to the rain on the roof top..

Have an appointment with the diabetetic specilist on thrusday and not looking forward to that, I suppose I will face the music when it happens, will let you know the out come, later on in the week.

Georgina is proud of her baby chrickens she has five, they are the dearest little pets, and Clementine is still proud stroting around with her two baby, who are now four months old.

well all from me for now will go to my other journal and write in it....hope all have a blessed week

Joanne xx

Today is another day:)

After my out bust yesterday with temper flying, cloths flying, books flying, I think I have calmed down a bit, only a bit, still not sure about what is happening with my weight, haven't been walking, just so how am I supposed to lose weight, today I will walk even if it is 10 min, and I will stay calm , even if it is 20 Min's,do my spiritual meditations and block people out, is the way to go today.have time out for my self...after yesterday maybe I should!!!:( my poor husband is still in shock how I let fly...:(

At long last my parcels arrived yesterday for me I have brought the most beautiful pink Teddy for my cousin who had a little girl last month, I am late to send it but I know she will appreciate it when it dose finally arrive ...girls are special, but boys are special also,but I just love babies, and till my dying day I will love babies, something calming and special about them, like a kitten...if only i HAD A KITTEN .but no more..

I have not be keeping a track of my weight what I have been eating this week, it is shocking,but will get back into today weigh in tomorrow...

Well David and my self and Ben are going out for lunch to day to maitland to Hogs breath cafe, to meet a friend, it should be nice and to catch up and be happy.

No more from me I had better go clean my bed room and get dressed and be happy....and enjoy my lunch.

I WONT LET THIS UPSET GET ME DOWN....

Well the last 24 hours have been drooling. and I don't think I could be more sadder than I am, but life goes on, and despite what that person said about me, I keep going, I am not going to let some one be under minding say I hide behind my religion...I am only human, I have faults also,so I made a decision this morning, and I think it is a good one, I deactivated my face book, and am going to focused on other areas of my life, like walking, and getting this weight off, this is for me no one else the rest of the world can go to hell, and what I do is my business, I am my own person, I had for two long in my younger days of people running my life and telling me how I should live,no more,I am not standing for it any more,yes I am angry..but for a good reason,and I am taking a stand,and if any one wants to say things about me like they have, they are going to be in for a big shock.

Despite me sleeping in this morning, it has put me back, but I will go and have a shower now and do what I have to do ..and enjoy what I have to do...and not give a thought any more to what has happened,just in my prayers pray for that person,,,or persons..

On a brighter note, am looking into going on retreat, with a friend some time this year, looking around where somewhere closer to home,and have few days away...which will be good, but in the meantime looking forward to going on the cruise in may,so am just focusing on that for now, and nothing else..

Have a peaceful day:)

Sunday afternoon

I should be cleaning my bed room, for weeks I have looked at a pile of stuff next the bed and it just lies there, I am going to get rid of it if it is the last thing I do. my daughter cleaned my bed room a few weeks ago so my job was to clean out draws and get rid of rubbish, but I have to admit I have been a bit depressed the last two days, and I shouldnt have,just been pure lazy, in my pray life and my blogging and other stuff, so I have to pick up my feet and get moving again, no excuse.
I am going on a cruise in May with my husband, so I dont have time to lay around and feel sorry for my self, I have to count my points and eat right and be positive,I need to get some kgs off before we sail off..it will be so good to go away for 10 days on our own, our youngest son Ben thinks it will be good not to have mum and day around!! more on the cruise later.
This week I am hoping to get a kg off I have been walking but today been so hot no walk, I do have to get my bumb off this chair after writing and go up to franklins and get some thing for tea, maybe a salad, my friend is coming to stay the night .
that will be good , looking forward to a few laughts very far and few of them lately...
My son Ben went to see Wicked today in sydney with his sister chloe,no doubt he will come home happy as larry and give up every detail of the show, loves life ben and enjoys every thing that is going.
Well enough from me now, I had better go and do this shop, drat hate going out in this shit of a heat..it is horrible.but it could be worse,,
till next time
have a good week.

its going to be a good year

so far this week I have had a up and down week, but to my dismay I did well at ww this week I followed my points and I walked and lost .7 so am so happy with that, it is going to be a good year, positive, I know it will be up and down but all in all its going to be good.

Going on a cruise in May so I have all the challange to lose weight and go and get a new cloths so that is my challange, and yes I can do it/

I have been counting my points on the net on the ww site and it is a great help i just love it

well till later
be Happy;)

I Have had a good week, though did put weight on at ww, but it was christmas and I only put on ,7 so that is quite good, but this week I am going back to the points and walk each day./

Today was a good day except for my sugars dropping really low, which makes me feel shocking, then for the rest of the day I am sort of out of it!!but tonight it is good and I am feeling my old self again,please God my sugarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrw will behave tomorrow!!
Tomorrow I am off to muswellbrook early in the morning to mass and confession, good for the soul

We are supposed to have a very hot weekend, drats I hate the heat,but will behave my self and keep cool
till next time bye for now