Happy new year

It is NEW YEARS DAY HERE, I am sitting at the computer on my own and all the family are still asleep..may I add it is neally 11am. I didnt stay up to see the new year in, I was just to tied, and feeling yack, but now it is a new year that is behind me now and I am going to be more kinder and gentle with my self, walk evey day!!!!even if the house is untidy, just put my shoes on and my ipod on and walk dont think about it just do it...

My sugars are bad, but once I get into a routine and do what I am suppose to do I will be better for it, with the Grace of God he and I can do this together,with OUT GOD I AM NOTHING.

Our christmas was nice a quite one we had christmas lunch at home together as a family (see picture above) and then in the afternoon we visited friends,then went down to davids family for tea, that was shocking, some people can be so rude and hurtful esp when it was christmas, all the family receive money off the father except his only son david, very hurtful, I dont stand for that, next year we are doing our own thing, might even consider going overseas if we can save up in time.our daughter will be over there next year..

I have relised life is to short for negative people in our life, we need to be around positive people, who will love us for how we are and support us,that is what I am doing this year, to stay with positive people and not let people boss me and tell me how to life my life...

I pray every one has a wonderful new year love Joanne

A new day

well after been away from ww for sick weeks due to illness , I went back and joined up again, and to my amazing I had lost over the six weeks 1 .4 kg so I aM on the mark where I can now start again and feel positive.

so today is a new day a new week and each day I have to learn to focus and trust in God to get me though it. It will get hard, and it will be difficult, but I have to keep going.so I will post again when I have some new news
thanks for support

I AM STRUGGLING IN MORE WAYS THAN ONE, AND AM FED UP/

Maybe I have to learn to be patient with my self, after the last few weeks I HAVE been struggling with health issues, more than one, I am honestly over it. Now I have Pleurisy and Bronchitis, and this heat isn't helping.

My question is do I continue to keep going to weight watches or do I just forget about it till I am feeling back to my old self, well IF I give up now the weight that I have lost will come back on again,wont it? The thing is I need some one to get me and make me do it walk , well in this heat to walk would be deadly, the last two days have been 45deg, to much to bear,
but then one has to learnt to discipline them self's and say yes you can do it and you will do it!!

WELL THE TRUTH IS..............I am struggling struggling with health issues, spiritual issues,and marriage issues, so I turn to God and hope that maybe he can calm me down and just teach me to be still and listen.

So tomorrow is another day, I will start again tomorrow,with the help of God
Thank you for dropping by.

Just one more black slide....

I haven't been to ww for two weeks! not I ended up so ill at the Dr's with a shocking cough, the flu (hoping it wasn't swine flu) and Asama's which i haven never had before told to go home and stay home for two weeks don't go any where!! so I did, and well I am on the mend, still very tied, and just plodding around...I HAVE noticed I have been eating what I should be and by my scales I have lost 2kg so I am hoping when I go back to ww IT shows also!, it is easy to get out of the way we do thing,.and I HAVE been walking with my ipod, but with the cortisone tablets to help me breath they make your face round..well I am off them now.
So Monday is another start of the week and I am back on track...I have to be gentle with my self and not beat my self up so much.

THANK YOU TO THE two girls who drop by my last post and comment I appreciate your support and will keep in touch great to get feed back it makes me want to keep going..

Well I guess I really should finish up and go to be it is 12 30 in the morning far to late for me to be up ...
will be intouch again soon, love Joanne

Starting to feel like is this worth it all?

I went to ww today and put on .4 God I can not win, OK So I didn't try, I didn't walk, I didn't follow points, I just have lost it, I am losing interest. it is all to much I am struggling...I need some encouragement..I don't know what I need, just am down and feel is it worth it all.

I went to the Diabetic specialist and she wants to see me in another three months...with more weight off and my sugar down further. it is all just to hard. well I am throwing the towel in but I feel just horrible, struggle and well not well, tied and still am picking up from my shoulder op, even though it is five weeks, the pain is still there and Physio each week...

EACH day is a Terrible struggle, with pain ...with motivation and you name it ..I think I have lost the plot...I don't know what to do..I just wish I had a personal trainer..some one that took interest in my weight lost that encouraged me each day to get off my bum and go walking. I must admit my son brought me and Ipod to encourage me to go walking..and yes I will
but I am feeling spiritual dead also at the moment.

God I you take an interest in my life but can you please show me where I am going wrong. or what should I do to get motivation...Maybe I should go and do a retreat...maybe I should just lock my self away for a month ...what ever it is I should do I need some one to please help me.

Dont you feel some days are just so hard ....that no matter what you do you just can not win? well this is how I feel today...maybe tomorrow I will have a different attitude...with the help of God...
catch you later love Joanne

family reunion

our family reunion was just so good and here is a photo of the collage which I did, I met family member which I have met before and it was just a wonderful day...and to think in 8 weeks of not going to weight watches I only put on.5 so am happy with my self.

life is a challange at the moment!!!

The last few weeks have been a challenge, and still are! two weeks ago I had my shoulder operated on and didn't come out of the anapestic very well all day was out to it, to wake up that night throwing up from the medications, and so so tied, I was discharged the next morning, still vomiting, so much for Private hospitals. My sugars were out of wacko and I was just weak and sick on the stomach for three day s...it turns out they gave me medications which I WAS allergic to great really great...ended up at the Dr's on the Monday and he was no help just said go hand and rest and do nothing for two weeks. So that is what I have been doing, even though I feel a bit better...I did get up this morning and ended up going back to bed for three hours and sleeping, so I must have needed it.

My weight is OK even though I haven't been back to ww I feel I needed a break will go back at the beginning of September and start again, I haven't put on so that is good but I must get into walking again as soon AS I am strong again, TODAY is a SHOCKING DAY, the weather is so wild and we are having a dust storm, and it is horrible a bad day to go out side, it is all over the state.

I have a family reunion to go to in a week so am looking forward to that..thank God my Depression has lifted, and I am able to cope with large crowds. thank God for that and for all my friends who are so supported...

Well until next time,

Cheers

Joanne

just for today

1. TODAY I WILL NOT STRIKE BACK: If someone is rude, if someone is impatient, if someone is unkind... I will not respond in a like manner.2. TODAY I WILL ASK GOD TO BLESS MY 'ENEMY': If I come across someone who treats me harshly or unfairly, I will quietly ask God to bless that individual. I understand the 'enemy' could be a family member, neighbor, co-worker, or a stranger.3. TODAY I WILL BE CAREFUL ABOUT WHAT I SAY:I will carefully choose and guard my words being certain that I do not spread gossip.4. TODAY I WILL GO THE EXTRA MILE: I will find ways to help share the burden of another person.5. TODAY I WILL FORGIVE: I will forgive any hurts or injuries that come my way.6. TODAY I WILL DO SOMETHING NICE FOR SOMEONE, BUT I WILL DO IT SECRETLY: I will reach out anonymously and bless the life of another.7. TODAY I WILL TREAT OTHERS THE WAY I WISH TO BE TREATED: I will practice the golden rule - 'Do unto others as I would have them do unto me' - with everyone I encounter.8. TODAY I WILL RAISE THE SPIRITS OF SOMEONE I DISCOURAGED: My smile, my words, my expression of support, can make the difference to someone who is wrestling life.9. TODAY I WILL NURTURE MY BODY: I will eat less; I will eat only healthy foods. I will thank God for my body.10. TODAY I WILL GROW SPIRITUALLY:I will spend a little more time in prayer today:I will begin reading something spiritual or inspirational today;I will find a quiet place (at some point during the day) and listen to God's voice!-- Author Unknown

IT IS A CHALLNAGE,BUT I CAN DO IT I KNOW I CAN

I am on track it is a slow challange, but for the last three weeks, I have lost .2 each week it all adds up, and to do it little by little even though it is very challangening it feels GOOD...and to have support from so many wonderful friends, it keeps you going..I know some days I get down but I am up again dont stay down for long.

I am off to hospital om the 9th september for shoulder sugery. only over night please God but to be out of pain will be so good it is a three month to get over it so that also will be a challange but I am good at challnagers lol somt time:)

A BEAUTIFUL DAY HERE TODAY it is like spring. it is supposed to get to 26 on the weekend. which will be so good to get out and enjoy doing gardening and going walking.and taking photos..

well till later I will go and get my letter writing in order

Trying to Get back on track again..

It has been some time since I have written up how I am going with my weight watches, but I am hoping to go to the meeting this Thursday, I have been losing weight, last fortnight I lost.4 but I am being challenged by my son now and daughter if I lost 10kegs in 13 weeks s Shannon will give me $40 and Chloe a new pair of shoes to wear to the family reunion in October back at Young...well I can not fall on that now can I ?? so I have tyred to get back into walking and am counting my points, ww is the best way to go when losing weight great support and very friendly people..and I must say I have made some wonderful friends.

Even though I have had the last three days feeling flat I did get my bed room clean today, and that has made me a bit better...but despite my down feeling I am still just taking one day at a time and hoping tomorrow might be a brighter day...I have to learn to be gentle with my self and just do what I can on days like this...(unless you suffer with depression you have no idea what it feels like to be in a dark hole!)

I am trying to start up my own photo shot as doing photos of flowers and people etc to do on cards to sell I do love taking photos, but my failing is I can spend all day on the computer and get nothing Else done, but if I am doing what I like it is good I suppose...

The grocery shopping has to be done today, and bills payed, so I guess sitting here isn't going to get that done, thank God for DAVID he will take me up town and help with the shopping, I am very blessed with a wonderful husband, and three beautiful children..Shannon is turning 19 on Friday so we will take him out for lunch he wants to go to the pub, where they give a beautiful meal..

Chloe is coming home this Thursday so we are happy about that it is always wonderful to see her, it keeps my mind busy when I have family home..

Well on that note I hope all have a lovely week and I will write again soon

God bless to all

Joanne

On our cruise we had a wonderful time more later

Had a good loss this week yah

IT is starting to pay off again I lost 1.8 this week and I feel good, ah it pays off when you count the points and walk, even though I can not walk much with my bad knee, I am trying.that is the main thing.

The weather has been beautiful the last few days like spring weather good to get the cloths dry, and also do house work.

It IS ONLY 6 weeks till the cruise and I am so looking forward to it..IT will be so good to get away for 10 days ah and just be waited on and not have to cook or do a thing..

so I struggle on and the positive attuide helps and all the wonderful friends that are helping me along the way
Hope all are having a good week.

Easter (Good friday)

It is a long journey with my weight but I am determined to do it. My daughter and two sons are encouragement s me to the point my eldest son Shannon is training me to make me walk at least twice a day, well so far am walking once a day, and I have been tracking with my points...

Each day is a challenge but I am going to do it ..if it takes me another two years...

\Easter is upon us and I am going to the 3pm mass and then the 7pm mass tomorrow night..faith plays a big part in my life, with OUT GOD I wouldn't be where I am today, so blessed with friends and family, and I thank God each day for them..

Sunday we are heading down to Sydney to see manly play against the west tigers, so am looking forward to that and having a day out Sunday with the family , Chloe wont be coming as she is going to a wedding..

well all from me for now will blog again after Easter with more family photos

thank you for your support, keeping you in my prayers this Easter,

Being gentle with my self .life is so much better.....

When I have had a good week, I can cope, when I am gentle with my self and not beat my self up and let God take over, I am a different person, calm.loving and just my self where I can go from day to day and be blessed and know I can not do it with out GOD, AND SO THIS WEEK has bee like this for me. I did put on .2 but that is OK I didn't walk,. I was lazy and this week I am going to walk and walk and walk and drink lots of soup the points 0 soup,and count my points. no matter what!!! ah that is where I go wrong when I don't count my points i fall big time. the points work...

I HAVE BEEN BUSY THIS WEEK with and my camera course which I am loving and my computer cause which I am also loving and am really learning so much esp with the digital camera cause ...i feel alive when I am taking photos and I feel the presence OF God when I am taking beautiful photos I will enclose some photos for you to look at.

Tomorrow night I am heading out to the Lenten group which is also very good. it is hard to believe Easter is Nealy upon us......I don't know where this year is going. a bit scary.....

My friend starts chemo next week she has just being diagnosed with cervical cancer please keep her in your prayers./

WELL all from me for now hope all have a great week,

Joanne

yah lost weight this week

I lost 1.9 kg this week so am so happy with my self, I don't know what I did, I think I just didn't stress out made 0points soup and ate that a lot which is very filling...ah feel like I am on top again

Had my toe nail removed today so not going to Tafe tonight, resting up the anaesthetic is wearing off ouch....I will be OK though wont be in that much pain like I was...still feeling unwell. but I am going to to just rest and keep destressing.

Hope every one had a good week

Joanne

So I didnt do so well again this week!!

well I dint do so well again this week! but I am not going to let it get me down, I put on 1.2kg...if I am going to dwell over it I will never get back on track, so today is another day, I am going to just concentrate on my walking, drinking my water, being positive, put behind the past and start again.

Thank God it is the weekend, even though we are not doing much I might just try and get my bedroom up to a clean state, it is not that bad, but i HAVE lost my cord to my mobile phone to recharge so there for I don't have a mobile phone well maybe that is a good thing, seeing its lent.and the less I have to do with phones the more I can be positive on doing what I have to do as in losing weight and being cheerful to every comes my way.

Going to the Dr THIS afternoon as my toe is still infected, this is getting beyond a joke more antibiotics, which I hate taking.

After my walk this morning which was 60 min walk I come home and collapse with my knee it is so painful but I was determined to keep walking I am not going to let the scales beat me next week.

Well all for now hope you all have a wonderful weekend...:)

Early hours of the Morning

it is after four in the morning being awake since 2am just can not sleep

feeling sick in the stomach and just out of sorts......my sugar is up so have

taken more insulin, to try and bring it down...life is a challenge when you have

to try and get your sugars down get your weight down and just keep alive/

I need to relax think beautiful thoughts life each hour as if it is going to be my last

be positive,stay away from negative people. I can only live one day at a time or maybe one

hour at a time, if I do this I should be OK if I don't think of tomorrow and leave yesterday behind

If I just relax in Gods presents,smell the flowers the roses and go for gentle walks and pray my

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knee dose not buckle in altogether..If I go and sit in the church in front of the blessed

sacrament and just know that no matter what happens God and I can do this together.

And he will not give me more than I can handle. I do have so much to be thankful for, my

wonderful friends, my Family, just being alive and being able to walk and breath and feel

God love....

Have a Blessed week

Today is another day

EVEN THOUGH I have had a masive fight with my hubby I dont feel any better for it so went to mass and was annointed and fr spoke on saying sorry so if that wasnt God speaking I eat my words.
Depite me feeling down this afternoon I am feeling a bit more bright, just put tea on as we have to do our computer course tonight at 6 till 9 at least that gets me out of the house...havent eaten much today but for tea having salmon patties, which I love with salad...have decided to go to drinking water instead of the sada water, see how I go there.
I will get up early in the morning and go for a walk take buster, if I start early it might get my mood in a better frame...
Life is a challange and with lent now it is a good time for me to take a good look at my life, besides my weight...I can do it AND I will do it ...
well till tomorrow bye for now hope all have a great weekend


Joanne

somthing different

I was bored tonight upset so I did this photos shot I am enjoying my digtial camera cause
looking forward to doing more photo shots

weigh in Day

well I wasnt going to go and get weighed but I did and I felt I had lost at least.5 but to my dissapointment I put on 1kg ouch that is bad, and when I got back into the car and told david he said no way that is not possible but that is what the scales say the last three weeks I have gained weight and I am not at all happy but I have been tracking and eating 0 soup so where in the hell have I gone wrong, havent been able to walk as for myknee so I dont know..so I am going to track again not go and get weighed next week as I have an appointment when ww is on so will cut back on points
any other suggestions? please help!

Joanne

My heart isnt in it any more..

Trying to get my self up to scratch again with the weight seems an every daunting task, now I am unable to walk well the Dr told me I should stay off my leg as much as possible as my knee has been damaged from the fall ..so have to go to the specialist on the 14Th April, and my toe yes it is infected again and more antibiotics and tonight after two days on antibiotics my toe still very swollen and very painful. when it clears up I need to have it cut out the nail that is!!! Never ending with me. I thought life was going to be so much simply when I started to get the weight off but no the medications I am on no doubt is slowing it down...it is frustrating me big time...

Wondering if I should go and get weighed this Thursday! when I am supposed to be resting this leg and not walking on it...I was told the more I walk on it the more damage I will do ..can not win..

It may seem I am making excuses but no I am not I looked back at the photos of how I looked before The weight came off and boy I have come a long way so I have to be gentle with my self and just keep hacking at it despite down falls, no matter what I will get it off Just want to get to the 10% and I will be happy.

Tomorrow is Ash Wednesday the beginning of lent so I am going to really try and improve in my spiritual journeyand pray life

Praying for you all..

Joanne

A day OF rest

Yesterday a few of us from our parish went out to say by to fr Matthew we had a nice lunch and what I ate I didnt feel guility I had a salad with salmon patties and they were very nice..a nice day and then this morning david and I went to 7am Mass and said goodbye to FR as it was his last mass in the parish, we stopped by for a cuppa afterwards, despite me being in heaps of pain in my leg leg with a infected toe and now my knee when I had a fall a few weeks ago and now the knee is playing up on presure...but I am walking if I go down so be it..looks like I will have to go and see the dr in the morning..as much as I dont want to . I have to go my sugars are still up graaaaaaaaa....and can not get into the specilist till the 27th march 3 30pm. so besides all this I am still smiling, and do feel ok in my self the depression has left me ..so it jolly should..

I am back to counting my points and watching all that goes in my mouth, I made a o free soup so that is helping...today is good but it isnt the end of the day yet.....heading up to visit a friend this afternoon who has been digonased with cancer, she goes into hospital wednesday for an operation, please God they can get it all. cancer seems to be so much today it is scary..

Can any one help me please/ ? I dont know how to go about putting my photos on the side and my weight as the weeks go by could any one help me and tell me would really appriciate it .

Well all for now better go and visit this friend..
all have a great week

Joanne

life is a challange and some days I dont like it!!

I am still feeling blah and I know I shouldn't be, my infection in the toe is improving, I don't have to go and get more tablets as I rang the nurse up yesterday and she said just bath it in hot salt water so that has helped heaps,but am still feeling unwell and just down, I am tied of being told by my Dr its depression...well what ever it is I have to just sit it out, and if I am tied and need to sleep I will sleep, like yesterday I slept all afternoon and, didn't feel better for it though, I have to try and just be more Gentle with my self and just take one day at a time..it is hard, BUT I have to learn Rome wasn't built in a day.

My weight is driving me mad, I just want to get to the 10% and I will be happy but it is up and down one week I will lose over a kg and then the next put on .7 its very frustrating, and I am thinking this week I will have a break not go to ww just get back to the quick start and see how I go.,while I am thinking like this Its no good me going.

I started my Digital camera course on Thursday night I really enjoyed it, and last night started my computer course it was OK next week should be better..it was just the basic and a bit boring.


Life is a challenge, next week it is the beginning of Lent Goodness where has the year gone? we just got over Christmas!

Hope you all have a good week and we can inspire each other with our weight lost ( a better one for me in a few weeks)

Joanne

not a good weigh in

Today I went in to weigh, to my shame I put on .4 and then they said they made a mistake last week said instead of .2 she made the mistake of .7 I put on last week,um unimpressed.
well this week I have to just move and not think about it and get it off ,weeks ARE getting away and I need to at least reach my 10% at least it is taking me far to long to lose but then am on medication .and cortosine for my back so can not win I was going so well in the beginning I dont know what is going on now...o well next week we will see a move down on the scales.

The weather is starting to get warmer again, it is quite hot this afternoon./I have my first lesson at tafe tonight in digitial camera, so looking forward to it.
and then tomorrow night I have a computer course so am quite looking forward to that and I am doing that with david.

well no much more for now will write later
Joanne

More Positive Today

am more positive today, even though I am still very tied, not as tied, i thought TO my self Joanne you can not stay down it is not like you...today is another day just be positive and stop
thinking of the negativc stuff.

We have had rain for the last few days, it is very heavy tonight, might flood, there is an alert been put out for the Hunter,,so we will stay tuned.

Have been doing my points, a bit off tract today, will get back on them tomorrow..I know I can do it.

A WONERFUL FRIEND WAS speaking to me last night and he has been a friend for 29 yearsm he is a cahtolic priest, he prayed for me to help me feel better, my goodness the power of prayer is just so wonerful. That is why I am feeling more positive I am sure..well I amfeeling better.
I love the weekends when it rains havent seen that much rain but this weekend it is just fantastic and really loving it

Well on that note I will go and keep being positive
Thank God for all the wonerful friends I have

bye for now

Joanne xx

Another bad Day

I tyred to stay positive even though I have ha two ba ays, so this morning I got up an bang down I go again, very tied aching all over again and massive headache, it could be the Polomoligia back again, I don't know, but what ever it is it is making me tied an sleeping all day... to put it mildly I feel shit...and to go with it I am feeling depressed.
How do I get out of it? just take one day at a time. listen to body and just pray I start to feel better,I know I have had days like this before and I know I have to just sit them out..but when they go on for three days like now it is horrible....it could be stress that brings them on, things on the home front are not good so that could be a cause of it..what every it is I just have to learn one hour at a time. and know I will come through this, but for now I have to try and do my prayer exercises and try and be gentle with my self and not take it out on every one Else....but My God its very hard to do it...
As for my weight I haven't been walking as I am to weak, and scared of passing out, but have try ed to follow the points and eat what I am supposed to eat, even though my appetite has gone..(stress will do that):(

Well maybe tomorrow will be a better day, please pray it will be,until then I will continue to hang on the love that God has for me and know he walks the journey with me.

photos of my weight lost since april last year

some photos of how I looked before I started ww well when I look at these yes I have lost weight!

feeling very down...

Hasnt beeN A GOOD DAY, WELL the last two days have been shocking, sugars up out of wack and tied, irritable and fed up with life in General,I dont usual give up but this time I feel horrible just tied, the last two days I have just slept wont speak to the family ect..

Went into get weighed today, put on .2.but that is ok but I followered the points and drank water soda water,I am now 90.3 but the girl put in my book .I am now 90.8 that made me so mad well I guess I will get over it ...well I will try better this week and try and an get positive again, just trying to get my sugars down is the problem
till next time
Joanne

HAPPY WITH MY LOSS

I have had a good week, went to weight watches, and I lost 1.1kg, so I am on track again and am so thankful for all the support I am getting.

I was down there for a while as the weight was slowing creaping back on and I knew in my heart I had to get back to tracking and wow has it worked so back to tracking and doing what I am supposed to do, I have not been able to walk as the weather has been far to hot, we are expecting high temps and today is shocking but tomorrow is suppose to get to 47 God help us all...I am staying in side and not going to do much..the heat makes one feel quite sick..!!

Being positve and staying around postive people helps me so much to the point now when people ring me and talk negative I dismiss them in a big time, just can not handle them...so I just contine to stay still and listern to what my soul is telling me.

It is lovely to have my family all home this week end, even though Chloe has to go back to Newcastle this afternoon but for now I am enjoying her being home..

Yesteray we got a New kitten, she is so beautiful her we have called her Mollie, an her name suites her, big time..

The dogs are not impressed about the new kitten so we have kept her in side, she is has such a beautiful nature, and has settled into her new home very well..SO NOW we have five animals two little chickens two ogs an the kitten a lot to have to get minde when we go on our cruise in may, but for now we will enjoy them, for this heat I think we are going to have to put the dogs in side tomrrow as it will be to hot ,,

Well for now thanks for coming by I will up date you later on my weight but for now Have a great weekend

God bless

Joanne xx