A new year Approching

this year has not been a good one, to say the least, it seem to get worse towards Christmas, and Christmas day i am not even going their, the worse Christmas i have had for  YEARS But i got through it and survived, through tears and sadness, but i did It. so i am looking forward to saying good bye to 2012 for good, NOT saying what 2013 will bring,

When I was pondering on my life though my prayers the other day, i thought to my self, how things have changed over the years, how people change, and how friends who say  they are friends can turn in a second and be a different person, to the degree they wont speak to you any more, this has happened to me three times this year, and at Christmas time i extended my hand , being Christmas a time of forgiving and friendship, and this person didn't want to know me, so it is time to let them go, but got me is they call them selfs a christian and pray and go to church and yet do this, which i feel is not supposed to be like, but they are the loser, and i move on, i will pray for this person, but will never speak to her again.. A big lesson learnt to never put your trust in any one, only God as he will never leave you.

SO for my new year, I am going to stay away from people who up set me and are negative, and surround my self with loving and caring friends who know my worth, who accept me for who I am , and at the same time pull me up when i am falling down,and this also means getting close to the loving lord, letting him in my life all together, and being open to the will of THE Holy spirit.

I pray we all have a peaceful 2013 and receive many Blessing,
GOD BLESS.

worry wont get you any where

The last few weeks have been very trying, financial we are in a mess, and bills are coming in and no money to pay them. so I decided its time to really just let go and LET GOD, HE IS THE ONLY ONE I thought can fix this, so I stopped worrying and God can  deal with it all, so I prayed and stopped worrying, God has  heard my prayer and two beautiful Angels came to my aid and then tonight I won a ham at the Club, how lucky is that, but the bottom line is I let go and let God, life is hard, and it is going to get harder, but I know what ever happen, God will be their in the bad times and the good times, I have to learn to trust more and let go.

Tomorrow I have a earlie appointment to see the Dr to get my results, dreading it as the Pain I have been experiencing is getting worse. but I know again God will deal with this.

Tonight I learnt of a good friend that her Cancer has come back, this is so sad,so many people are ill with cancer,my friend is only 48 far to young to be dying.

IT would be good if I could get some good night sleep the last week I havent been sleeping and it is starting to take its toll, Praying during the night helps but dose not seem to help me close my eyes and get a few hours sleep,I would like to have at least one good night sleep.so God if your listerning please could you help out/

Well on that note I might go and have a cuppa Tea and please God get a few hours sleep till I have to get up and be at the Drs appointment at 8.30

Till next time Blessings to all.