life is some times like this

Today Is one of those bad days, where you just seem to not be able to get out of bed or even make the effort to phone a friend, to say you need to talk. TWO days now I have been in constant pain in my lower back, my fault as I wore high heels to my Daughter birthday lunch, stupid me wanting to make my self look nice and now I am paying for it, though it just teaches me not to  make an efford next time.

I have to make a dicision this week, and it is a hard one, as I should be going somewhere on saturday but I am in two minds about going, its something I need to really bring to my prayer life, even though I dont have much of a prayer life at the moment/ I Could possible be going though a dark night ~

It would be nice to be this butterfly for a week, and just be.

The struggle of our Faith/

Well after five months of hell, well it felt like that, I am back to my old self, feeling more like being in a position of writing in my BLOG again

I must admit life is a Challenge, but I do believe with our God on my side, I wouldn't have pulled though.

Each day is a very big challenge for most of us, those that struggle with being put down,not wanted, not accepted, those of us that know in our Hearts we are doing the right thing, but not accepted by those that have a higher power,those that don't want to hear the truth or believe in the truth, This brings me to those Priests who are struggling because they are not accepted, not wanted, and put aside because of the higher power want full control.Bishops who don't see the true meaning in the sacrament of the priest hood.

We pray for those Priests who in their struggles, continue to keep the faith, to just keep going, get up each day and continue to pray and believe that one day the truth will come out. But what a horrible existence to know your not wanted or accepted, because you stand up for the truth, How does one priest continue to struggle though this, well only by the grace of God, those who believe in him and continue to support him in prayer and friendship.

Let us in our daily prayer Remember those priests who are fighting for the truth,That God will bring all those who have higher power to be open to the HOLY SPIRIT .To listen and not to turn their back on their brother Priests.

A new year Approching

this year has not been a good one, to say the least, it seem to get worse towards Christmas, and Christmas day i am not even going their, the worse Christmas i have had for  YEARS But i got through it and survived, through tears and sadness, but i did It. so i am looking forward to saying good bye to 2012 for good, NOT saying what 2013 will bring,

When I was pondering on my life though my prayers the other day, i thought to my self, how things have changed over the years, how people change, and how friends who say  they are friends can turn in a second and be a different person, to the degree they wont speak to you any more, this has happened to me three times this year, and at Christmas time i extended my hand , being Christmas a time of forgiving and friendship, and this person didn't want to know me, so it is time to let them go, but got me is they call them selfs a christian and pray and go to church and yet do this, which i feel is not supposed to be like, but they are the loser, and i move on, i will pray for this person, but will never speak to her again.. A big lesson learnt to never put your trust in any one, only God as he will never leave you.

SO for my new year, I am going to stay away from people who up set me and are negative, and surround my self with loving and caring friends who know my worth, who accept me for who I am , and at the same time pull me up when i am falling down,and this also means getting close to the loving lord, letting him in my life all together, and being open to the will of THE Holy spirit.

I pray we all have a peaceful 2013 and receive many Blessing,
GOD BLESS.

worry wont get you any where

The last few weeks have been very trying, financial we are in a mess, and bills are coming in and no money to pay them. so I decided its time to really just let go and LET GOD, HE IS THE ONLY ONE I thought can fix this, so I stopped worrying and God can  deal with it all, so I prayed and stopped worrying, God has  heard my prayer and two beautiful Angels came to my aid and then tonight I won a ham at the Club, how lucky is that, but the bottom line is I let go and let God, life is hard, and it is going to get harder, but I know what ever happen, God will be their in the bad times and the good times, I have to learn to trust more and let go.

Tomorrow I have a earlie appointment to see the Dr to get my results, dreading it as the Pain I have been experiencing is getting worse. but I know again God will deal with this.

Tonight I learnt of a good friend that her Cancer has come back, this is so sad,so many people are ill with cancer,my friend is only 48 far to young to be dying.

IT would be good if I could get some good night sleep the last week I havent been sleeping and it is starting to take its toll, Praying during the night helps but dose not seem to help me close my eyes and get a few hours sleep,I would like to have at least one good night sleep.so God if your listerning please could you help out/

Well on that note I might go and have a cuppa Tea and please God get a few hours sleep till I have to get up and be at the Drs appointment at 8.30

Till next time Blessings to all.

In every day a sadness.

The  last few weeks their has been nothing but sadness and heart break in my life,but instead of dwelling on it ,i have turned to God ,and lifted it all to the lord,a time of quite and just been silent in prayer,
This is the only way i have been able to cope,it has calmed me down,and helped me focus on the positive stuff in my life.
Don't ever think God doesn't listen to you,because he does.
Have a Blessed week.

Life dose not seem fair

llife does not seem fair, and yet we continue to keep hurting people and people continue to hurt us,and in saying this,could Jesus be in all this, I do not think so not for one minute an evil has taken over this world and their is a great battle going on, between good and bad,and the times we have tyred to be there and do the right thing, we only get slammed down and told to grow up ,or wake up to our self's,or you don't know what our talking about because you don't have a brain.
THE LAST FEW weeks have been hell for me,.to say the least and tonight as I was lying in bed thinking I should be up praying to get some peace in my life,i have this terrible discontent in side my soul,a feeling I haven't had for ages, a bad feeling, can not put a finger to what it is,i know i am so very discontented,an emptiness and sad feeling,
I am tied of trying to be the person people want me to be, and I am tied of been put down ,
In a way it  is a suffering like Christ, he was rejected and hated, and yet what did he do wrong, ? The suffering that one suffers is in union with Christ, to bear the suffering well knowing Jesus know what it is like to suffer, he was  just like us in all things but Sin and he knows what it is like to be hurt and rejected, this in it self gives hope because I know he is with me through all this and wont leave me, so I am grateful so i am forever grateful to you Lord ...thank you for not giving up on me as you know how weak I am.

The last week I have screamed, cryed, yealled, and just let God know I WAS feeling very very meserable, and in the sadness of it all God in his goodness sent me a beautiful sun set tonight, to quiten my soul down to let me know he still is with me and now matter what happens he will not leave me.

So I am in awwww to the Lord for this sunset ~