Faith

Amazing how people love to find you and when your down and out I just go to Jesus, my find, it is a comforting  feeling to know i can trust and fell secure in his love,and tell him any thing, and know it will stay with him, I can talk to him all day and he listens to me and i don't have to feel hurt or Rejected,,,it is a good feeling.

Even though I am struggling with my faith at the moment, I just take one day at a time, say my Rosaries and trust in Our Lady also,knowing she is holding me and helping me in all the difficulties that I am facing

I think life is getting more difficult but saying this, I was only thinking of the way I was brought up in the Catholic faith, how simply it was when I was a child, how i would be taken to Mass on a Sunday and respect and think the priest was God!! ah so funny, now today you have to find a priest who you can trust.

My dear Aunty used to say to me when I was young child if a Priest has got great devotion to OUR LADY HE WILL NOT GO WRONG, IF A PRIEST has no devotion to Our Lady, watch how he will fall! it true more than you know, Find me a Priest today who has Our lady on his side, not many, but those that do God bless them, we pray for their blessings and love them in our prayers and ask God to protect  them on their journey. Bless those who struggles and fining their Journey a hard one.

Continue to ask for wisdom and love in the Holy Spirit, not to fall and give up.

Imitation Of Christ

“It is good for us to have trials and troubles at times, for they often remind us that we are on probation and ought not to hope in any worldly thing. It is good for us sometimes to suffer contradiction, to be misjudged by men even though we do well and mean well. These things help us to be humble and shield us from vainglory. When to all outward appearances men give us no credit, when they do not think well of us, then we are more inclined to seek God Who sees our hearts. Therefore, a man ought to root himself so firmly in God that he will not need the consolations of men.” 
― Thomas à Kempis, The Imitation of Christ

Pain

When a person is under the influence of pain there isn't much they want to do, at least for me that is true. 
I am in a A spiritual pain, wondering where my life is going and why I am in such a terrible pain of the Soul

Last week I made the decision to deactivated my Facebook, it is a decision I didn't make lightly as I have my prayer groups on their, one be Padre Pio Praying together, I dearly loved Padre Pio, but I have prayed to hime for guidance, to help me with my spiritual life, and this is the answer i received, so with a tautly openness toGod I thought I need to do this to find my self again.

Life is difficult at the best of times but we need to take time out and meditate on the love of God, be open to he is will and listen with a sincere heart..In this crazy world it is so hard to do, with not much love for God any more, people leaving the church and giving up their faith, but I say if you don't have God, who do you have? 

God needs me as much as I need him, to be open to his holy will, I  NEED TO JUST  let go of a lot of Material things in life and be more simply ....Trust God more and be open to his Holy will.Take time out to be with the lord, go back to the Sacraments of Confession and Mass 

Lord Please give me the courage I need to do these things, Padre Pio pray for me 

As she sat in the room sipping her coffee, her thoughts were wondering all over the place!
Why am I really feeling this way, why can not life be a little simpler and then she realised, with what has been happening in her life of late, it was it had all come to the top, she needed a space to just have time out on her own, to reflect on what life is really about, but she knew that she need to be in a space to be able to collect her thoughts and be at peace about it.
It seemed that the trip to melbourne a few weeks prior  had stirred a lot up in her soul, and sadness and emotional feelings had come to the top, and she was dealing with these and wasn't coping at all.
When her son had taken her to the Abborstford convent, it has brought miles of memories back  of what it was like for her as a child when she was at a convent as a child, though this convent was for wayward girls and the sisters would help, but the feeling still stirred in side her soul, she was so curious  she went and brought the book about the convent, called the Convent~This convent was run by the Good Shepard's Sisters , but the convent she was at was the Mercy sisters, Mercy where their was no Mercy she thought to her self, as memories flooded back in side her soul!!

AS she wondered though the Corridors of the convent with her Son and Husband, she could smell the wax on the floors, the sense of the Nuns been hard on the Girls..as she walked she also sensed the spirit of the broken of the girls, but still in all this she was fascinated by it all, and wanted to learn more of it.

As they walked toward the Coffee shop, to have morning tea, she sensed a very hard sadness that brought tears to her eyes, it was all to much, and the pain was stabbing in side her heart!

More Oder in your life than you relise

The last few weeks have been hard, in one way or the other, but I have weathered the storm and come through it all. continue to pray about a lot of different aspects of my life. and God has answered my prayers in his time not mine. which i am forever grateful. Prayer is so powerful when you believe in it, and take time out to pray, Meditation is a very good way of also praying, been in touch with the Lord, taking time out ~ being silent and at peace.

I am grateful for the last week and looking forward to the following weeks, a very positive out look on life, Beautiful friends and Family surround me.

Life is good 

Very irritable today

I should be feeling good, but I am feeling sick and irritable ,irritable with people who have let me down,my son, my friends and life in general,.

When I woke up this morning all I could think of was 

Why has life have to be difficult, why are some so unreasonable? 

Life isn't mean to be easy but come on,give me a break.

The pain through my body isn't helping ,it's making me very angry

I call on God but there is no answer ! I beg him to help me! 

Maybe tomorrow will be better 🌷

A NEW YEAR

Glad to put 2014 behind me, 2015 is going to be a good year,

My aim is to get the weight off, have started on a high protein diet,

Get fitter,

UP MY PRAYER LIFE,

STAY WITH POSITIVE PEOPLE AND PEOPLE WHO LIFT ME UP AND NOT WALK ALL OVER ME.

Be my self, visit lots of my friends, and get back into driving the car again..

Our First little granddaughter was born just before Christmas, I feel blessed being a grandmother, although I have not seen much of the precious baby, Hopefully in months to come i will see her more.,..

Our Christmas was beautiful and a peaceful one/

It was good to see Ben home from Melbourne and chloe home from Newcastle.

It will be good to get back to my home town and visit my cousins and old friends  and look around the town, young, 27 years since i lived their, it will have changed.

I wish you all a Blessed 2015
Joannexx