worry wont get you any where

The last few weeks have been very trying, financial we are in a mess, and bills are coming in and no money to pay them. so I decided its time to really just let go and LET GOD, HE IS THE ONLY ONE I thought can fix this, so I stopped worrying and God can  deal with it all, so I prayed and stopped worrying, God has  heard my prayer and two beautiful Angels came to my aid and then tonight I won a ham at the Club, how lucky is that, but the bottom line is I let go and let God, life is hard, and it is going to get harder, but I know what ever happen, God will be their in the bad times and the good times, I have to learn to trust more and let go.

Tomorrow I have a earlie appointment to see the Dr to get my results, dreading it as the Pain I have been experiencing is getting worse. but I know again God will deal with this.

Tonight I learnt of a good friend that her Cancer has come back, this is so sad,so many people are ill with cancer,my friend is only 48 far to young to be dying.

IT would be good if I could get some good night sleep the last week I havent been sleeping and it is starting to take its toll, Praying during the night helps but dose not seem to help me close my eyes and get a few hours sleep,I would like to have at least one good night sleep.so God if your listerning please could you help out/

Well on that note I might go and have a cuppa Tea and please God get a few hours sleep till I have to get up and be at the Drs appointment at 8.30

Till next time Blessings to all.

In every day a sadness.

The  last few weeks their has been nothing but sadness and heart break in my life,but instead of dwelling on it ,i have turned to God ,and lifted it all to the lord,a time of quite and just been silent in prayer,
This is the only way i have been able to cope,it has calmed me down,and helped me focus on the positive stuff in my life.
Don't ever think God doesn't listen to you,because he does.
Have a Blessed week.

Life dose not seem fair

llife does not seem fair, and yet we continue to keep hurting people and people continue to hurt us,and in saying this,could Jesus be in all this, I do not think so not for one minute an evil has taken over this world and their is a great battle going on, between good and bad,and the times we have tyred to be there and do the right thing, we only get slammed down and told to grow up ,or wake up to our self's,or you don't know what our talking about because you don't have a brain.
THE LAST FEW weeks have been hell for me,.to say the least and tonight as I was lying in bed thinking I should be up praying to get some peace in my life,i have this terrible discontent in side my soul,a feeling I haven't had for ages, a bad feeling, can not put a finger to what it is,i know i am so very discontented,an emptiness and sad feeling,
I am tied of trying to be the person people want me to be, and I am tied of been put down ,
In a way it  is a suffering like Christ, he was rejected and hated, and yet what did he do wrong, ? The suffering that one suffers is in union with Christ, to bear the suffering well knowing Jesus know what it is like to suffer, he was  just like us in all things but Sin and he knows what it is like to be hurt and rejected, this in it self gives hope because I know he is with me through all this and wont leave me, so I am grateful so i am forever grateful to you Lord ...thank you for not giving up on me as you know how weak I am.

The last week I have screamed, cryed, yealled, and just let God know I WAS feeling very very meserable, and in the sadness of it all God in his goodness sent me a beautiful sun set tonight, to quiten my soul down to let me know he still is with me and now matter what happens he will not leave me.

So I am in awwww to the Lord for this sunset ~

Life is challangening

Sitting in the waiting waiting for david he is having more bands put on his teeth...
This is a trying Tim but I seem to be coming through it ok.
Hoping to go and have lunch and something to drink soon,poor david still hasn't had lunch ...
With the grace of God I will get through today.
My walking is going well and have lost 3 kgs ion the last two weeks, my son comment on how well I am looming and to keep up the good work
So that has encouraged me big time
Its aways good to have that encouragement🍁
God gas been very good to me
And I thank God for all my beautiful friends🌺

I am only Human and I do have feelings!

The last 10 day have been hell, but some how I have come though it and through the grace of God, I am ok and able to tell the story.
David was in hospital for a few days having dental work done, so we stayed with our daughter, I hate newcastle, simple fact I had to drive in the mad traffic, now I am not use to this as my husband david would never let me drive in the city, but now I was forced to do it, well I did it, but just as i was getting used to driving to the hospital and to charles town david decided to take over and wanted to drive..!
a few nasty remakes and saying have been said to me over the last few weeks, and I have stayed silent,as if i said any thing I would have started to get up set and start shouting..

life is difficult, and I have been trying to work out why I have this horrible feeling in side me, I can not seem to bring it to the top .

I had a nice birthday despite not been at home, but all in all the kids made it good for me and wade took me for a nice drive along the beach and cooked a BBQ SO THAT WAS NICE,.
I did walk lots and have lost some weight I am continue to keep up the walking and cut back on intake of food, and am feeling more alive.

I am grateful to God for bringing me though the last 10 days and ask to help me get through the next week.

Turning to God is the answer

The last week or so has not been good, attacked through a friend at fb and accused of stuff I haven't done, I am beginning to think FB IS dangerous and not a good place to be on, closed one account and got my honest and true friends on an another account, but STILL I am not happy, something is not right~ so after contemplating about it all in my prayers , I thought no I need to turn to God fully, and try and do away with fb as it is distracting me from my prayer life and other stuff~I need to Focus on God and my spiritual life, keep distance from people who are a distraction to my spiritual life. God is the only one that can help me here, so lord I am yours do what you want with me.
It is after two in the morning, I should be sleeping, but am far to upset, but here again, this is where I have to let it go and give it all to God, and trust he will look after me, and knows the struggle which I am facing.
So today is a new day, to start again, go walking, smell the Roses and just live for today, ~