Just one more black slide....

I haven't been to ww for two weeks! not I ended up so ill at the Dr's with a shocking cough, the flu (hoping it wasn't swine flu) and Asama's which i haven never had before told to go home and stay home for two weeks don't go any where!! so I did, and well I am on the mend, still very tied, and just plodding around...I HAVE noticed I have been eating what I should be and by my scales I have lost 2kg so I am hoping when I go back to ww IT shows also!, it is easy to get out of the way we do thing,.and I HAVE been walking with my ipod, but with the cortisone tablets to help me breath they make your face round..well I am off them now.
So Monday is another start of the week and I am back on track...I have to be gentle with my self and not beat my self up so much.

THANK YOU TO THE two girls who drop by my last post and comment I appreciate your support and will keep in touch great to get feed back it makes me want to keep going..

Well I guess I really should finish up and go to be it is 12 30 in the morning far to late for me to be up ...
will be intouch again soon, love Joanne

Starting to feel like is this worth it all?

I went to ww today and put on .4 God I can not win, OK So I didn't try, I didn't walk, I didn't follow points, I just have lost it, I am losing interest. it is all to much I am struggling...I need some encouragement..I don't know what I need, just am down and feel is it worth it all.

I went to the Diabetic specialist and she wants to see me in another three months...with more weight off and my sugar down further. it is all just to hard. well I am throwing the towel in but I feel just horrible, struggle and well not well, tied and still am picking up from my shoulder op, even though it is five weeks, the pain is still there and Physio each week...

EACH day is a Terrible struggle, with pain ...with motivation and you name it ..I think I have lost the plot...I don't know what to do..I just wish I had a personal trainer..some one that took interest in my weight lost that encouraged me each day to get off my bum and go walking. I must admit my son brought me and Ipod to encourage me to go walking..and yes I will
but I am feeling spiritual dead also at the moment.

God I you take an interest in my life but can you please show me where I am going wrong. or what should I do to get motivation...Maybe I should go and do a retreat...maybe I should just lock my self away for a month ...what ever it is I should do I need some one to please help me.

Dont you feel some days are just so hard ....that no matter what you do you just can not win? well this is how I feel today...maybe tomorrow I will have a different attitude...with the help of God...
catch you later love Joanne

family reunion

our family reunion was just so good and here is a photo of the collage which I did, I met family member which I have met before and it was just a wonderful day...and to think in 8 weeks of not going to weight watches I only put on.5 so am happy with my self.

life is a challange at the moment!!!

The last few weeks have been a challenge, and still are! two weeks ago I had my shoulder operated on and didn't come out of the anapestic very well all day was out to it, to wake up that night throwing up from the medications, and so so tied, I was discharged the next morning, still vomiting, so much for Private hospitals. My sugars were out of wacko and I was just weak and sick on the stomach for three day s...it turns out they gave me medications which I WAS allergic to great really great...ended up at the Dr's on the Monday and he was no help just said go hand and rest and do nothing for two weeks. So that is what I have been doing, even though I feel a bit better...I did get up this morning and ended up going back to bed for three hours and sleeping, so I must have needed it.

My weight is OK even though I haven't been back to ww I feel I needed a break will go back at the beginning of September and start again, I haven't put on so that is good but I must get into walking again as soon AS I am strong again, TODAY is a SHOCKING DAY, the weather is so wild and we are having a dust storm, and it is horrible a bad day to go out side, it is all over the state.

I have a family reunion to go to in a week so am looking forward to that..thank God my Depression has lifted, and I am able to cope with large crowds. thank God for that and for all my friends who are so supported...

Well until next time,

Cheers

Joanne

just for today

1. TODAY I WILL NOT STRIKE BACK: If someone is rude, if someone is impatient, if someone is unkind... I will not respond in a like manner.2. TODAY I WILL ASK GOD TO BLESS MY 'ENEMY': If I come across someone who treats me harshly or unfairly, I will quietly ask God to bless that individual. I understand the 'enemy' could be a family member, neighbor, co-worker, or a stranger.3. TODAY I WILL BE CAREFUL ABOUT WHAT I SAY:I will carefully choose and guard my words being certain that I do not spread gossip.4. TODAY I WILL GO THE EXTRA MILE: I will find ways to help share the burden of another person.5. TODAY I WILL FORGIVE: I will forgive any hurts or injuries that come my way.6. TODAY I WILL DO SOMETHING NICE FOR SOMEONE, BUT I WILL DO IT SECRETLY: I will reach out anonymously and bless the life of another.7. TODAY I WILL TREAT OTHERS THE WAY I WISH TO BE TREATED: I will practice the golden rule - 'Do unto others as I would have them do unto me' - with everyone I encounter.8. TODAY I WILL RAISE THE SPIRITS OF SOMEONE I DISCOURAGED: My smile, my words, my expression of support, can make the difference to someone who is wrestling life.9. TODAY I WILL NURTURE MY BODY: I will eat less; I will eat only healthy foods. I will thank God for my body.10. TODAY I WILL GROW SPIRITUALLY:I will spend a little more time in prayer today:I will begin reading something spiritual or inspirational today;I will find a quiet place (at some point during the day) and listen to God's voice!-- Author Unknown

IT IS A CHALLNAGE,BUT I CAN DO IT I KNOW I CAN

I am on track it is a slow challange, but for the last three weeks, I have lost .2 each week it all adds up, and to do it little by little even though it is very challangening it feels GOOD...and to have support from so many wonderful friends, it keeps you going..I know some days I get down but I am up again dont stay down for long.

I am off to hospital om the 9th september for shoulder sugery. only over night please God but to be out of pain will be so good it is a three month to get over it so that also will be a challange but I am good at challnagers lol somt time:)

A BEAUTIFUL DAY HERE TODAY it is like spring. it is supposed to get to 26 on the weekend. which will be so good to get out and enjoy doing gardening and going walking.and taking photos..

well till later I will go and get my letter writing in order

Trying to Get back on track again..

It has been some time since I have written up how I am going with my weight watches, but I am hoping to go to the meeting this Thursday, I have been losing weight, last fortnight I lost.4 but I am being challenged by my son now and daughter if I lost 10kegs in 13 weeks s Shannon will give me $40 and Chloe a new pair of shoes to wear to the family reunion in October back at Young...well I can not fall on that now can I ?? so I have tyred to get back into walking and am counting my points, ww is the best way to go when losing weight great support and very friendly people..and I must say I have made some wonderful friends.

Even though I have had the last three days feeling flat I did get my bed room clean today, and that has made me a bit better...but despite my down feeling I am still just taking one day at a time and hoping tomorrow might be a brighter day...I have to learn to be gentle with my self and just do what I can on days like this...(unless you suffer with depression you have no idea what it feels like to be in a dark hole!)

I am trying to start up my own photo shot as doing photos of flowers and people etc to do on cards to sell I do love taking photos, but my failing is I can spend all day on the computer and get nothing Else done, but if I am doing what I like it is good I suppose...

The grocery shopping has to be done today, and bills payed, so I guess sitting here isn't going to get that done, thank God for DAVID he will take me up town and help with the shopping, I am very blessed with a wonderful husband, and three beautiful children..Shannon is turning 19 on Friday so we will take him out for lunch he wants to go to the pub, where they give a beautiful meal..

Chloe is coming home this Thursday so we are happy about that it is always wonderful to see her, it keeps my mind busy when I have family home..

Well on that note I hope all have a lovely week and I will write again soon

God bless to all

Joanne