Happy new year

It is NEW YEARS DAY HERE, I am sitting at the computer on my own and all the family are still asleep..may I add it is neally 11am. I didnt stay up to see the new year in, I was just to tied, and feeling yack, but now it is a new year that is behind me now and I am going to be more kinder and gentle with my self, walk evey day!!!!even if the house is untidy, just put my shoes on and my ipod on and walk dont think about it just do it...

My sugars are bad, but once I get into a routine and do what I am suppose to do I will be better for it, with the Grace of God he and I can do this together,with OUT GOD I AM NOTHING.

Our christmas was nice a quite one we had christmas lunch at home together as a family (see picture above) and then in the afternoon we visited friends,then went down to davids family for tea, that was shocking, some people can be so rude and hurtful esp when it was christmas, all the family receive money off the father except his only son david, very hurtful, I dont stand for that, next year we are doing our own thing, might even consider going overseas if we can save up in time.our daughter will be over there next year..

I have relised life is to short for negative people in our life, we need to be around positive people, who will love us for how we are and support us,that is what I am doing this year, to stay with positive people and not let people boss me and tell me how to life my life...

I pray every one has a wonderful new year love Joanne

A new day

well after been away from ww for sick weeks due to illness , I went back and joined up again, and to my amazing I had lost over the six weeks 1 .4 kg so I aM on the mark where I can now start again and feel positive.

so today is a new day a new week and each day I have to learn to focus and trust in God to get me though it. It will get hard, and it will be difficult, but I have to keep going.so I will post again when I have some new news
thanks for support

I AM STRUGGLING IN MORE WAYS THAN ONE, AND AM FED UP/

Maybe I have to learn to be patient with my self, after the last few weeks I HAVE been struggling with health issues, more than one, I am honestly over it. Now I have Pleurisy and Bronchitis, and this heat isn't helping.

My question is do I continue to keep going to weight watches or do I just forget about it till I am feeling back to my old self, well IF I give up now the weight that I have lost will come back on again,wont it? The thing is I need some one to get me and make me do it walk , well in this heat to walk would be deadly, the last two days have been 45deg, to much to bear,
but then one has to learnt to discipline them self's and say yes you can do it and you will do it!!

WELL THE TRUTH IS..............I am struggling struggling with health issues, spiritual issues,and marriage issues, so I turn to God and hope that maybe he can calm me down and just teach me to be still and listen.

So tomorrow is another day, I will start again tomorrow,with the help of God
Thank you for dropping by.

Just one more black slide....

I haven't been to ww for two weeks! not I ended up so ill at the Dr's with a shocking cough, the flu (hoping it wasn't swine flu) and Asama's which i haven never had before told to go home and stay home for two weeks don't go any where!! so I did, and well I am on the mend, still very tied, and just plodding around...I HAVE noticed I have been eating what I should be and by my scales I have lost 2kg so I am hoping when I go back to ww IT shows also!, it is easy to get out of the way we do thing,.and I HAVE been walking with my ipod, but with the cortisone tablets to help me breath they make your face round..well I am off them now.
So Monday is another start of the week and I am back on track...I have to be gentle with my self and not beat my self up so much.

THANK YOU TO THE two girls who drop by my last post and comment I appreciate your support and will keep in touch great to get feed back it makes me want to keep going..

Well I guess I really should finish up and go to be it is 12 30 in the morning far to late for me to be up ...
will be intouch again soon, love Joanne

Starting to feel like is this worth it all?

I went to ww today and put on .4 God I can not win, OK So I didn't try, I didn't walk, I didn't follow points, I just have lost it, I am losing interest. it is all to much I am struggling...I need some encouragement..I don't know what I need, just am down and feel is it worth it all.

I went to the Diabetic specialist and she wants to see me in another three months...with more weight off and my sugar down further. it is all just to hard. well I am throwing the towel in but I feel just horrible, struggle and well not well, tied and still am picking up from my shoulder op, even though it is five weeks, the pain is still there and Physio each week...

EACH day is a Terrible struggle, with pain ...with motivation and you name it ..I think I have lost the plot...I don't know what to do..I just wish I had a personal trainer..some one that took interest in my weight lost that encouraged me each day to get off my bum and go walking. I must admit my son brought me and Ipod to encourage me to go walking..and yes I will
but I am feeling spiritual dead also at the moment.

God I you take an interest in my life but can you please show me where I am going wrong. or what should I do to get motivation...Maybe I should go and do a retreat...maybe I should just lock my self away for a month ...what ever it is I should do I need some one to please help me.

Dont you feel some days are just so hard ....that no matter what you do you just can not win? well this is how I feel today...maybe tomorrow I will have a different attitude...with the help of God...
catch you later love Joanne

family reunion

our family reunion was just so good and here is a photo of the collage which I did, I met family member which I have met before and it was just a wonderful day...and to think in 8 weeks of not going to weight watches I only put on.5 so am happy with my self.

life is a challange at the moment!!!

The last few weeks have been a challenge, and still are! two weeks ago I had my shoulder operated on and didn't come out of the anapestic very well all day was out to it, to wake up that night throwing up from the medications, and so so tied, I was discharged the next morning, still vomiting, so much for Private hospitals. My sugars were out of wacko and I was just weak and sick on the stomach for three day s...it turns out they gave me medications which I WAS allergic to great really great...ended up at the Dr's on the Monday and he was no help just said go hand and rest and do nothing for two weeks. So that is what I have been doing, even though I feel a bit better...I did get up this morning and ended up going back to bed for three hours and sleeping, so I must have needed it.

My weight is OK even though I haven't been back to ww I feel I needed a break will go back at the beginning of September and start again, I haven't put on so that is good but I must get into walking again as soon AS I am strong again, TODAY is a SHOCKING DAY, the weather is so wild and we are having a dust storm, and it is horrible a bad day to go out side, it is all over the state.

I have a family reunion to go to in a week so am looking forward to that..thank God my Depression has lifted, and I am able to cope with large crowds. thank God for that and for all my friends who are so supported...

Well until next time,

Cheers

Joanne