Family is every thing to me and just to gave my family around ,mr keeps me going.
10/02/2017
Another Day
Thank you lordThe last few months have been very hard two deaths ,in one family, health issues and just know through all this I know God has been with me ,and has been carrying me,
3/03/2017
Saturday Aftenoon
I really don't like weekends, esp. when there is no money and bills are high and husband is busy working and so very tied sleeps most of the time. when you don't hear from your kids, as they are all busy.. it can be a very lonely time. missing seeing my little grandkids,
But i plod on, and try and stay as positive as possible, and not think of sad things or people who have up set me, i try and put my trust in the Lord,
Its lent and this is a great time to try and spend more time in Gods Presents and know he is walking the journery with leif he is indeed no doubt carrying me..though these dark days and know exactly what i am going through.
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I am trying to get back on track with my faith, going to Mass in the morning even though i don't feel anything i will go with the emotions,
Life goes on.. its a time of dryness
But i plod on, and try and stay as positive as possible, and not think of sad things or people who have up set me, i try and put my trust in the Lord,
Its lent and this is a great time to try and spend more time in Gods Presents and know he is walking the journery with leif he is indeed no doubt carrying me..though these dark days and know exactly what i am going through.
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I am trying to get back on track with my faith, going to Mass in the morning even though i don't feel anything i will go with the emotions,
Life goes on.. its a time of dryness
6/11/2016
Faith
Even though I am struggling with my faith at the moment, I just take one day at a time, say my Rosaries and trust in Our Lady also,knowing she is holding me and helping me in all the difficulties that I am facing
I think life is getting more difficult but saying this, I was only thinking of the way I was brought up in the Catholic faith, how simply it was when I was a child, how i would be taken to Mass on a Sunday and respect and think the priest was God!! ah so funny, now today you have to find a priest who you can trust.
My dear Aunty used to say to me when I was young child if a Priest has got great devotion to OUR LADY HE WILL NOT GO WRONG, IF A PRIEST has no devotion to Our Lady, watch how he will fall! it true more than you know, Find me a Priest today who has Our lady on his side, not many, but those that do God bless them, we pray for their blessings and love them in our prayers and ask God to protect them on their journey. Bless those who struggles and fining their Journey a hard one.
Continue to ask for wisdom and love in the Holy Spirit, not to fall and give up.
6/10/2016
Imitation Of Christ
“It is good for us to have trials and troubles at times, for they often remind us that we are on probation and ought not to hope in any worldly thing. It is good for us sometimes to suffer contradiction, to be misjudged by men even though we do well and mean well. These things help us to be humble and shield us from vainglory. When to all outward appearances men give us no credit, when they do not think well of us, then we are more inclined to seek God Who sees our hearts. Therefore, a man ought to root himself so firmly in God that he will not need the consolations of men.”
― Thomas à Kempis, The Imitation of Christ
― Thomas à Kempis, The Imitation of Christ
Pain
When a person is under the influence of pain there isn't much they want to do, at least for me that is true.
I am in a A spiritual pain, wondering where my life is going and why I am in such a terrible pain of the Soul
Last week I made the decision to deactivated my Facebook, it is a decision I didn't make lightly as I have my prayer groups on their, one be Padre Pio Praying together, I dearly loved Padre Pio, but I have prayed to hime for guidance, to help me with my spiritual life, and this is the answer i received, so with a tautly openness toGod I thought I need to do this to find my self again.
Life is difficult at the best of times but we need to take time out and meditate on the love of God, be open to he is will and listen with a sincere heart..In this crazy world it is so hard to do, with not much love for God any more, people leaving the church and giving up their faith, but I say if you don't have God, who do you have?
God needs me as much as I need him, to be open to his holy will, I NEED TO JUST let go of a lot of Material things in life and be more simply ....Trust God more and be open to his Holy will.Take time out to be with the lord, go back to the Sacraments of Confession and Mass
Lord Please give me the courage I need to do these things, Padre Pio pray for me
I am in a A spiritual pain, wondering where my life is going and why I am in such a terrible pain of the Soul
Last week I made the decision to deactivated my Facebook, it is a decision I didn't make lightly as I have my prayer groups on their, one be Padre Pio Praying together, I dearly loved Padre Pio, but I have prayed to hime for guidance, to help me with my spiritual life, and this is the answer i received, so with a tautly openness toGod I thought I need to do this to find my self again.
Life is difficult at the best of times but we need to take time out and meditate on the love of God, be open to he is will and listen with a sincere heart..In this crazy world it is so hard to do, with not much love for God any more, people leaving the church and giving up their faith, but I say if you don't have God, who do you have?
God needs me as much as I need him, to be open to his holy will, I NEED TO JUST let go of a lot of Material things in life and be more simply ....Trust God more and be open to his Holy will.Take time out to be with the lord, go back to the Sacraments of Confession and Mass
Lord Please give me the courage I need to do these things, Padre Pio pray for me
2/26/2016
As she sat in the room sipping her coffee, her thoughts were wondering all over the place!
Why am I really feeling this way, why can not life be a little simpler and then she realised, with what has been happening in her life of late, it was it had all come to the top, she needed a space to just have time out on her own, to reflect on what life is really about, but she knew that she need to be in a space to be able to collect her thoughts and be at peace about it.
It seemed that the trip to melbourne a few weeks prior had stirred a lot up in her soul, and sadness and emotional feelings had come to the top, and she was dealing with these and wasn't coping at all.
When her son had taken her to the Abborstford convent, it has brought miles of memories back of what it was like for her as a child when she was at a convent as a child, though this convent was for wayward girls and the sisters would help, but the feeling still stirred in side her soul, she was so curious she went and brought the book about the convent, called the Convent~This convent was run by the Good Shepard's Sisters , but the convent she was at was the Mercy sisters, Mercy where their was no Mercy she thought to her self, as memories flooded back in side her soul!!
AS she wondered though the Corridors of the convent with her Son and Husband, she could smell the wax on the floors, the sense of the Nuns been hard on the Girls..as she walked she also sensed the spirit of the broken of the girls, but still in all this she was fascinated by it all, and wanted to learn more of it.
As they walked toward the Coffee shop, to have morning tea, she sensed a very hard sadness that brought tears to her eyes, it was all to much, and the pain was stabbing in side her heart!
Why am I really feeling this way, why can not life be a little simpler and then she realised, with what has been happening in her life of late, it was it had all come to the top, she needed a space to just have time out on her own, to reflect on what life is really about, but she knew that she need to be in a space to be able to collect her thoughts and be at peace about it.
It seemed that the trip to melbourne a few weeks prior had stirred a lot up in her soul, and sadness and emotional feelings had come to the top, and she was dealing with these and wasn't coping at all.
When her son had taken her to the Abborstford convent, it has brought miles of memories back of what it was like for her as a child when she was at a convent as a child, though this convent was for wayward girls and the sisters would help, but the feeling still stirred in side her soul, she was so curious she went and brought the book about the convent, called the Convent~This convent was run by the Good Shepard's Sisters , but the convent she was at was the Mercy sisters, Mercy where their was no Mercy she thought to her self, as memories flooded back in side her soul!!
AS she wondered though the Corridors of the convent with her Son and Husband, she could smell the wax on the floors, the sense of the Nuns been hard on the Girls..as she walked she also sensed the spirit of the broken of the girls, but still in all this she was fascinated by it all, and wanted to learn more of it.
As they walked toward the Coffee shop, to have morning tea, she sensed a very hard sadness that brought tears to her eyes, it was all to much, and the pain was stabbing in side her heart!
11/12/2015
More Oder in your life than you relise
The last few weeks have been hard, in one way or the other, but I have weathered the storm and come through it all. continue to pray about a lot of different aspects of my life. and God has answered my prayers in his time not mine. which i am forever grateful. Prayer is so powerful when you believe in it, and take time out to pray, Meditation is a very good way of also praying, been in touch with the Lord, taking time out ~ being silent and at peace.
I am grateful for the last week and looking forward to the following weeks, a very positive out look on life, Beautiful friends and Family surround me.
Life is good
I am grateful for the last week and looking forward to the following weeks, a very positive out look on life, Beautiful friends and Family surround me.
Life is good
1/25/2015
Very irritable today
I should be feeling good, but I am feeling sick and irritable ,irritable with people who have let me down,my son, my friends and life in general,.
When I woke up this morning all I could think of was
Why has life have to be difficult, why are some so unreasonable?
Life isn't mean to be easy but come on,give me a break.
The pain through my body isn't helping ,it's making me very angry
I call on God but there is no answer ! I beg him to help me!
Maybe tomorrow will be better 🌷
1/01/2015
A NEW YEAR
Glad to put 2014 behind me, 2015 is going to be a good year,
My aim is to get the weight off, have started on a high protein diet,
Get fitter,
UP MY PRAYER LIFE,
STAY WITH POSITIVE PEOPLE AND PEOPLE WHO LIFT ME UP AND NOT WALK ALL OVER ME.
Be my self, visit lots of my friends, and get back into driving the car again..
Our First little granddaughter was born just before Christmas, I feel blessed being a grandmother, although I have not seen much of the precious baby, Hopefully in months to come i will see her more.,..
Our Christmas was beautiful and a peaceful one/
It was good to see Ben home from Melbourne and chloe home from Newcastle.
It will be good to get back to my home town and visit my cousins and old friends and look around the town, young, 27 years since i lived their, it will have changed.
I wish you all a Blessed 2015
Joannexx
My aim is to get the weight off, have started on a high protein diet,
Get fitter,
UP MY PRAYER LIFE,
STAY WITH POSITIVE PEOPLE AND PEOPLE WHO LIFT ME UP AND NOT WALK ALL OVER ME.
Be my self, visit lots of my friends, and get back into driving the car again..
Our First little granddaughter was born just before Christmas, I feel blessed being a grandmother, although I have not seen much of the precious baby, Hopefully in months to come i will see her more.,..
Our Christmas was beautiful and a peaceful one/
It was good to see Ben home from Melbourne and chloe home from Newcastle.
It will be good to get back to my home town and visit my cousins and old friends and look around the town, young, 27 years since i lived their, it will have changed.
I wish you all a Blessed 2015
Joannexx
12/30/2014
12/04/2014
Christmas is Upon us
Another year finished, where this year has gone, I have no idea. but I love to say i am glad it is nearly over, looking forward to next year,
I am at present waiting to be a Nanny, our Daughter in Law and Son are expecting their now baby, it is 10 days over at the moment so Please God it will arrive soon with no problems, and it is a easy birth.
It WILL BE great CHRISTMAS,with a new little one in the family, Babies are just a miracle and the make all your worries go away...THIS will bring Joy to our house and happiness, for many years to come.WE ARE BLESSED
Christmas is a time to reflect on our life, where she want to be, and to find Peace with the Lord, I was reading something on Facebook the other day and this say was so very true,*if SOME ONE OR SOMETHINS IS WORRYING YOU AND IT IS TAKING YOU AWAY FROM from praying to God LET IT GO,so true,
pray is the first thing that helps me through my daily life, the relation ship with God , and in remembering God is a Friend who will n3ever let you go or desert you, not like some humans who let you down and hurt you, you can always Depend on the Lord, to be there with you in the darkest times.
Enjoy your week
10/14/2014
9/14/2014
8/15/2014
Taking a day at a time
I had every intention of going to Mass this but i have woken up in terrible pain,i know its going to be a day of pondering on feeling better.
On wed we are heading off to melbourn to see our son,i am so looking 5forward to it,and to spend quility time with himfor his birthday,..
I love Melbourne and seeing the sights, its a time to have a break and ponder on life.
Its been a battle with my weight again,so i am going to do this diet which is shakes with two of my friends^ who are on this diet who work at MacDonald's,one of the girls have lost 35 kg
, such an inspiration, it just shows it can be done,if you put your mind to it.
I am still struggling with my diabetic levels so this is another reason i need to do this diet. On the brighter side of life,iam looking forward to been a grandmother in November,a very exciting Time all the family .so will keep you up to date with,my progress,of my weight
6/16/2014
Continuing on my story
I didn't fall for what I thought I would do, I instead just went along and hoped my Dad wouldn't let me go back to Boarding school I was so lonely and lost and hated it
AS we travelled back to Goulbourn my heart sank wanting just to be able to be with my dad but instead back to a cold, clinical boarding school
AS the days went by I settled in a little but used to be in trouble for not making my bed right, or getting smacked for not kneeling right during the Rosary, each night.before we went to bed.some night crying my self to sleep listening to the wind out side which would rattle the windows in our dormitory the hailing wind, the cold and the chill blames which I had.
I remember Friday I liked, as the boarders would get fish cakes and chips for lunch, Saturdays was clean our lockers, wash and do choirs around the balding, in the afternoon get read to go to the movies in the school hall, the nuns would have a lollies stall and we could buy lollies and chips to take to the movies, much to my discuss I would fall asleep before the movie would finish and have to be waken up by one of the older girls to go to back to our room to sleep/ Sundays would be mass in the morning and a nice baked lunch with a ice cream and then a afternoon walk to Rocky hill,. usual it would be a very cold and windy afternoon , always please to get back to the school/
Holidays would come around so very quickly and I would be so happy to be going home on the train for vacations, to be home with my Dad and be happy,.
For the six year I was at Boarding school I didn't like it, to this day I still have night mares about it, and even can smell the wax on the floor, still hear the voices of nuns saying rosary's, and offices. even thought I hated it I felt my only consolation was my faith, by going and attending Mass, confession, which we were made do each sat, to this day I thank God I do have my faith and it must have got me though this part of my life.
AS we travelled back to Goulbourn my heart sank wanting just to be able to be with my dad but instead back to a cold, clinical boarding school
AS the days went by I settled in a little but used to be in trouble for not making my bed right, or getting smacked for not kneeling right during the Rosary, each night.before we went to bed.some night crying my self to sleep listening to the wind out side which would rattle the windows in our dormitory the hailing wind, the cold and the chill blames which I had.
I remember Friday I liked, as the boarders would get fish cakes and chips for lunch, Saturdays was clean our lockers, wash and do choirs around the balding, in the afternoon get read to go to the movies in the school hall, the nuns would have a lollies stall and we could buy lollies and chips to take to the movies, much to my discuss I would fall asleep before the movie would finish and have to be waken up by one of the older girls to go to back to our room to sleep/ Sundays would be mass in the morning and a nice baked lunch with a ice cream and then a afternoon walk to Rocky hill,. usual it would be a very cold and windy afternoon , always please to get back to the school/
Holidays would come around so very quickly and I would be so happy to be going home on the train for vacations, to be home with my Dad and be happy,.
For the six year I was at Boarding school I didn't like it, to this day I still have night mares about it, and even can smell the wax on the floor, still hear the voices of nuns saying rosary's, and offices. even thought I hated it I felt my only consolation was my faith, by going and attending Mass, confession, which we were made do each sat, to this day I thank God I do have my faith and it must have got me though this part of my life.
6/03/2014
a page out of my book which I am writing
I am writing my life story, hoping to release in a book whom people can read,
When I was 9 I as sent to boarding school because my father was not well enough to look after me the Nuns decided to make the decision in sending me to Our Lady of Mercy College at Goulbourn, my father could never say no, so he agreed. only to my shock, a 9 year old send to boarding school., how would I survive this I was dreading it.
My Sister Catherine was married, in January 1968. where I remember I was her flower girl, our family friends Mary Carr was at the wedding and after the wedding we went to a friends place, for the weekend, then I remember being taken into David Jones to get my school uniforms for School, the feeling of disbelief, I didn't feel I could go through this...I remember thinking if I could get out of this I would,
So the day arrived, knowing my life would never be the same again, two nuns sister Jude, and sister alphonfonsus with Mary Carr came to pick me up and we drove to Goulbourn, on the was we stopped for a panic lunch, then they dressed me in my uniform ..all I could think of was I wanted to go back home to my father, home sickness had already settled
When we arrived at the school I was greeted by the reverent Mother, who looked very scary and my heart sank...home sick home sick home sick the tears came, and no one could console me what so ever.. all I could think was why are they doing this.
I had severed a week, and I remember the nun who was in charge of our dormitory came to me and said I was going home for the weekend, to see my father and aunty and Mary Carr, with great excitement I thought to my self, so thinking up in my mind how I was going to carry this out, I thought when I get to my dears aunts I would collapse and they will have to looking into it, then I thought I could run away from home. where they wouldn't find, me.all these things were going through my mind.But when we arrived I didn't do any of it.
More to come ~
When I was 9 I as sent to boarding school because my father was not well enough to look after me the Nuns decided to make the decision in sending me to Our Lady of Mercy College at Goulbourn, my father could never say no, so he agreed. only to my shock, a 9 year old send to boarding school., how would I survive this I was dreading it.
My Sister Catherine was married, in January 1968. where I remember I was her flower girl, our family friends Mary Carr was at the wedding and after the wedding we went to a friends place, for the weekend, then I remember being taken into David Jones to get my school uniforms for School, the feeling of disbelief, I didn't feel I could go through this...I remember thinking if I could get out of this I would,
So the day arrived, knowing my life would never be the same again, two nuns sister Jude, and sister alphonfonsus with Mary Carr came to pick me up and we drove to Goulbourn, on the was we stopped for a panic lunch, then they dressed me in my uniform ..all I could think of was I wanted to go back home to my father, home sickness had already settled
When we arrived at the school I was greeted by the reverent Mother, who looked very scary and my heart sank...home sick home sick home sick the tears came, and no one could console me what so ever.. all I could think was why are they doing this.
I had severed a week, and I remember the nun who was in charge of our dormitory came to me and said I was going home for the weekend, to see my father and aunty and Mary Carr, with great excitement I thought to my self, so thinking up in my mind how I was going to carry this out, I thought when I get to my dears aunts I would collapse and they will have to looking into it, then I thought I could run away from home. where they wouldn't find, me.all these things were going through my mind.But when we arrived I didn't do any of it.
More to come ~
5/15/2014
A wonderful weekend
I had the best weekend last weekend, On Friday night my Husband took me to see Michael Buble the kids gave me the ticks for my birthday last year and it was so good to go and see him as I just love his music, then on then on the sat we meet up with my family at Watsons bay, it was so nice to catch up with family my brother and sister cousins and Nephews, I feel very much at peace, and was able to just enjoy the company and good food fish and chips and salad, and water only one diet coke, we were blessed also for my daughter Chloe also came down from Newcastle to have the day with us. The weather was just perfect.
I am back to walking and flowering my points, even though my knee is giving me hell I still walk today am having a rest day did a short walk as it don't want to over do it. The weather has been beautiful the last few days which helps with my moods, and listening to the magpies singing out side is beautiful.
5/11/2014
5/02/2014
Saturday Afternoon
After having two hours sleep,this afternoon, as i didn't sleep last night, i am sitting in the kitchen, with out a tt,
except for the the dog out side barking,Harry who lets you know if any one is around, n is quite again, and as i sip on my cuppa tea i feel the last 24 hours have been more difficult than i expected, but at least now i am feeling more quite in my soul, and praying i will not experience which i did ,when one has to make their mind up about something and can not come to a discussion it makes one veery ill
Some times we need to move on from a situation for own sake to find peace in our own of soul,but for me i don't seem to be able to do it and it is causing me terrible heartache and turmoil in side me
Tomorrow is another day
4/11/2014
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