Every day is a challange!!

A New Year, A New beginning

2012-01-02T03:21:00.000-08:00

A new year, new promises, feeling of yes this is going to be the year, for losing weight!! No analysing it or saying its all far to hard, just do it and don't think about it, get up each morning and go for a walk, don't think about it, do it,as if its the last day of you living on this earth, no excuses no complaining its, to hot, your to tied, not well just get off your back side and do it, this is my challenge, to do this and don't think about tomorrow or yesterday just live today as if if it is my last/

I got a beautiful New cannon slr digital camera for christmas, looking forward to taking it on my walks and taking beautiful photos of the beautiful flowers ....

life as if today is your last,life is far to short let us all be grateful we have each day as it presents its self to us.

2011-10-29T17:25:00.000-07:00

I have been absent from my Journal, for a number of reasons, mainly because I HAVE had so much happening in my life,a lot of sadness, that led to negative feelings, and a lot of issues with my health, that led me to become depressed, and spirituality I was in no space to do any thing, except be angry and frustrated, cry and yell...so I have learnt in the last two weeks, to not be negative to my self or my friends, not be angry because of a family break down,it is better to walk away from that where there is negativity in all that, and to stay with my own family and be positive.....and give it all to God, and let him deal with it!

My challenge now is to really work on my weight and try and get some off, to help me with my knee!! when to the specialist the other day and he said it was a knee replacement!! I said now, but since them, I have realised the pain is becoming worse, since walking and this morning I walked another 50 min and boy am I paying for it now!! But through all this pain I am determined it is going to make my knee better, but I am told from other people it is doing more damage!! Either way I don't want a operation, but I might have to eat my words.

So I continue to count points, stay positive and walk each day, maybe by some Miracle the pain might go ...well for now I am putting my leg up with an ice pack on my knee, and resting today, as its storming and might do some reading ....

See what next week brings!

Its been a long time

2011-08-23T22:30:00.000-07:00

IT HAS been ages since I have been on here, life has had its ups and downs, and I have gone back to ww, am losing, but the last few weeks I haven't been able to attend as for sickness, after months of problems with my bowel the specialist has found out what is wrong and now am on medication which allows me to leave the house, and I don't feel like a prisoner in my own home.

I have to get motivated again to lose more weight am on the net with ww and tools really help, BEEN down though hasn't helped and each day I find I am either up or down and its that rotten feeling of hopelessness.

Finding out my friend has cancer again has knocked me for a six and wondering why these things happen to good people and not the rotters who are horrible to people.
I suppose God only picks the Beautiful Roses in this world, .its just not fair..

so depsite all the sadness in my life I am goin to start counting points again and walk, so tomorrow is another day and I will forget the past!

Its a very slow process

2011-03-24T16:27:00.000-07:00

Despite me going back to Weight Watches I am finding it very difficult, its not the same THE support dose not seem to be there like it was before, makes one feel so down when I joined up for the third time, and I walked in and was greeted from the leader so your back again!! so are you here for good this time or are you leave again, wow I thought to my self you heel, in front of all these new members who where joining, where I though was the support? where was, Joanne wow great to have you back again,? No wonder they can not get members to stay for the meetings!! She could not made me feel any smaller than I was.

So I go each week but the weight is slowly coming off not as quickly as i would like it to ..but I will keep going and not let negative people put me off!

Back on Track again

2011-02-19T20:43:00.000-08:00

After Ten Months of being away from Weight Watches, I decided to go back after a long though and the decision had to be for me not for any one Else, this time yes I am going to do it and not think about it just do it.

I was surprised to see they have changed the program again so that was even more exciting, when I Got weighted on the Thursday night to my surprise, I weighted exactly what I was when I left last May, so that made me feel good to a extent, so thinking yes well I stayed the same so yes here I go it will come off this time.

The first few days were a challange, counting the propoints and writing every thing down but it makes you think before you put stuff into your mouth, as you know if you eat it you have to record it!! 29 points I am allowed, but the best part of the programm, is you can eat as much as you like of vegies and fruit,they are filling foods, the interesting part was where the propoints are different they are double to the last programm so you really have to be careful, but its a challange and so far I am enjoying it, and hoping to have lost some weight in weigh in on thursday night...

Well till then bye for now will post after my next weigh in ...

Have a good week evcry one

Life has been a challange lately

2011-01-29T16:11:00.000-08:00

Christmas has come and gone, and as I walk though the shops like Big W I see Easter eggs, already, its only Feb, we have just got over Christmas!!

I have come to a serious decision, IT HAS been ten months since I have been to ww, and I havent put on but the weight is coming off bit by bit I have decided to go back to ww for another go ..only for 6 months,to see how I go, the new points plan is supposed to be good, so I have heard...so look out I am doing it for my self no one eles,I have decided also to stay away from people who upset me, spend more time for my self( that might sound selfish) but some times we need to take time out for our selfs and take a long look at what is happening in our life and spend time for our selves.

So as I lose KG BY KG I will be shouting my self a nice gift ...to keep me going!!

See you soon again

A new week

2010-10-24T02:30:00.000-07:00

Fr Paul Gardiner sj

Well so far my two shakes a day have been good, I seem to have more energy and happy to say my eating is becoming a point system...to the point I feel I am losing weight..wont weigh my self till the end of the week...just keep going..and know it is coming off, so happy to be going to a birthday party in three weeks time and then on to my cousin, in Wombat, for a few days, which I am so looking forward to going, as it is good to have time out..

We have had some lovely rain, which is so much appreciated...now it would be nice for some sunny weather...

The canonisation of our New saint Mary of the Cross,was so wonderful to watch, to think Australia has our first saint..it so wonderful and to think I also saw my Cousin Fr Paul Gardiner, who had a lot to do with the pushing of her to be saint...so we are so proud of him,and to see him sitting up at the canonisation, all the family were so proud of him...

Well no more from me this week, I will continue to pray for all my friends.....

a week that is neally over...

2010-10-21T15:20:00.000-07:00

I will be so please to see this week over, I have felt that I have really being tested by God, and I don't think I passed..but I pick my self up again and continue,and pray next week will be better..

With a sick husband, who continues, to keep losing weight and still has bad head aches, as I am writing this now he is not well ....and two of my children having a fall out, and myself with continues pain in my back to the degree some days I Can hardly walk with it.....I would like to just wake up one day and feel alive and human and be able to run a Marathon....but it is not to be, maybe this is my cross, so I know I must just take one day at a time, and know I will never be a saint like Mary Mackillop, but pray she helps me to accept what crosses I do have.

As for my walking and dieting it is getting there,!! counting points and watching what I am eating I have lost 1kg this week,which has made me feel good, I have to walk for at least 20 min, depending on my pain, but it hurts more when I have finished the walk, .I am over Dr's and specialists...am going to try Acupuncture and see if this relieves the pain!,

Well enough from me today, I have to go and get my self motoviated, and go up town and look for an out fit for my sons graduation in November,hard to beleive he has finished year twelve, it is hard to adjust to having no children now at school!!

I might go and get some brouchers on travelling to Rome ...ah that would be something to aim for in the next 18 months..!!

Just another day

2010-10-15T14:12:00.000-07:00

After a bad night sleep, bad winds, during the night, I am up to the sun shining and the winds are still bad.

yesterday Was a bad day, but today well it has to be better.
Chloe is in the kitchen baking a cake at 14min past 8 to take to her friends place for his birthday today...so sweet, she is a thoughful daughter...

I started at a good point yesterday back on diet, well not excatly diet, hate that word!! but counting points, and I did do well considering, maybe that is why I was out of sorts yestday,becasue I was being careful to what I ate...it isnt going to hurt me.....just make me irritable till I get back into the habit for eating right again...every thing was annoying me, even my friends..not good! Maybe it is time I thought of going on a retreat....well only thinking..

In November David and I are going to PeakHill for a 25th birthday party,looking forward to that, Have never been to PeakHill, its near Dubbo... it should be interesting...

Ben has started His HSC and so far he seems happy, had done Buisness studies, and papaer one english, and monday another english paper....so far so good, he seems happy so that is the main thing.

Hope all have a great weekend, dont forget to watch T.V TOMORROW night Our first saint MARY MACKILLOP ....AN EXCITING time for Australia, also if you have time to long into Road to Rome, for their blog each day and great photos.

Till later,
cheers.....

Mary McKillop

2010-10-13T16:42:00.000-07:00

Mother Mary McKillop, going to be our first Australian saint... Many Australians have travelled to Rome for her Canonisation on the 17Th Oct,

Pray for us Mary, as we as we also continue our journey on life, Give us courage to keep going..and Not give up...

looking forward to a break

2010-09-04T19:10:00.000-07:00

After so many weeks of not feeling well, at long last I was able to get antibiotics, for the infection, and now am starting to feel my old self again..at least I am not sleeping like I was all the time~~

Tomorrow David and I head out of Sydney for two night cruise..so looking forward to it, even though it is only two night it is good to get away, to have time to our self's and relax, and recharge our batteries..IT is only from Sydney to Newcastle....

Today it Fathers day and Chloe and Shannon came home and they have made home made pizzas for lunch, and for tea a nice baked roast lamb for tea..ah nice to have all the family home and be able to have family quality time together.

Benjamin informs me this morning he only has 3 weeks left of school! where have those years gone?...

I have put my weight on hold, which I should not have done, but I have promised to get back to walking and doing my points every day after the cruise,at least spring is here and nice weather to walk, despite the magpies~~ and today the winds are just unbearable, a good day to dry the washing~~

I had a beautiful day yesterday in Maitland for the first sat, with many friends to catch up with and mass and talks, with fr James, and a lovely lunch together, pleases continue to keep fr James in your prayers, as he faces, weeks of uncertainty.~~

Well all from me for now, better go and pack that port, leaving at 7 in the morning and shannon and chloe are driving us to newcastle where we catch the Happy Cabbie, leaving newcastle at 9 20, shipe to sail out of sydney at 4pm. till next time~~

Joanne

Wondering when I might feel my old self again

2010-07-31T21:07:00.000-07:00

ITS Sunday, here I sit in a beautiful sunny room, with the sun streaming in, and still feeling not my self, why is my head spinning and I am still tied, tied tied tied, I went off my medication hoping it would make a difference, nothing is making a difference, just feeling unwell, bad nights no sleep, with pain, and days of just spaced out wondering when this is every going to end, trying to focus on what I should do next, well its Sunday so I am doing nothing!

Broke my diet last night we went to a 50Th, meal was nice, but not what I call healthy food, deep fried and baked dinner, although we didn't know any one there, it was nice to go out, but by 9am I was ready for bed, we got home around 10 and I went to bed to be awake each hour to two hours....how frustrating...how annoying I want sleep and it wont come....well life goes one and if I do nothing today so be it, just read a good book...maybe a little cat nap...if my eyes allow it..I am starting to think medications are bad for the body, esp anti depressions, they do the reverse to the body, so one can not be alert..well that is what happened to me, so it will be interesting when I see the dr on thrusday what he says when I tell him I went off my medication..

ITs the 1st august another week upon us...maybe this week will bring exciting changes in my life....

Another day another hour,

2010-07-28T16:03:00.000-07:00

I am really starting be be over winter, and feeling cold all the time, but yesterday and last night I don't think I could have felt worse....A shocking night, nausea, bad head,. I don't feel any better today, but I forced my self out of bed and made the bed so I wouldn't get back into it!!

I was awake when David walked in the door at 1.15am from work, to his dismay asking me why I was still awake! and even had cleaned my room, folded up cloths put them back in there rightful place, believe me when your feeling sick like I was at 1 this morning I felt the room had to be clean as I though If I don't wake up and least they will find me in a clean room! I have never felt as sick as I did early hours of the morning...

My son Informs me it is only three weeks till his 18Th, I have to get my act together and order the cake, we have booked the venue and invites have gone, out, and I have that to look forward to and our three day cruise in September!! I say bring on spring, winter isn't my favorite any more!!

Well maybe tomorrow will be a better day for me..life goes on

A new day

2010-07-25T17:02:00.001-07:00

Even though I haven been here for a while I have decided to come back and share what has been happening in my life!!

I have had my ups and downs, with a shocking back, and depression set in and back to the Dr I went to sort out medication, now they have me on a new tablet only been on for 2 weeks, still not feeling my old bubble self, feeling emotional, physical not well, spiritually I am doing well (I will talk on that further down)

As I sit here at my desk looking out the window with the sun breaming in on me, I think of all the wonderful things that have happened in my life, my family and my friends, even though in the last few weeks one friend, turned on me, It hurt, but she knows no better, I need to let her go, and know God can take care of her, he is the judge, and I am not to judge. Life goes one...

I am blessed in so many ways with my spritual director, who is leading me closer to God, and this help in my spiritual life, with my emotions it is hard to focus on my weight and try and lose it, even though I have promised my self I will walk for thrirth minutes each day, no matter what, and Know I will be better for it...and it will make me strong as each day I wake up to.

In May David and my self went on a cruise, it was nice, even though I got quite sick....but did enjoy our self, and it was great to get off the boat as we did the same cruise last year and couldnt get off it as it was the swin flu ship! we still enjoyed our selfs, despite getting off the ship.. \

well all from me for now but will post some photos up of our cruise

till next time

Joanne

A beautiful sunny day...

2010-04-22T22:55:00.001-07:00

well despite only one more week to go till I have my knee done, I am happy to say today is a beautiful day,and the sun is shinning, and it is just good to be alive.

I didnt make it to ww this week but weight my self at home and have lost1.3 this week with out trying, only eating what I am supposed to eat.

Feels good, and well it is only 27 days till our cruise, so am excited about that and about going shopping for cloths and shoes next week, ...

We have been invited to a 21st on the 1st May the day after my operation, I should be up to it and happy to be able to go...now to buy a present!! it for a boy any suggestions for pressents????

well not much more I hope all have a blessed and happy long weekend

Not doing so good but getting there..!!

2010-04-20T16:24:00.000-07:00

Even though I am able to walk, I have been watching what I AM eating and counting my points, it is difficult when you knee gives way, so on the 30th of this month I am going to hospital and they are going to do key hole surgery,I need to be mindful as WE ARE going on a cruise in a few weeks so want to be able to walk on the ship and when we get off the ship.AS THE LAST TIME WE WENT on the cruise it was the Swin Flu Ship!! so we couldnt get off!!

MY weight is frustrating me big time, by my scales I am only 91 Kg and by ww scales I am 93.3 a big difference, so as you can see I am very frustrated,and it annoyes me now as we only have one meeting and that is on a night time..they chloes the morning meeting..I weigh better in the morning!!

I had a nice day sunday,with my friend up at muswellbrook, here is a photo of us both after we had a coffee and lunch ..we were both at mass as we got the blessing for the St John Vianney prayer group..

I am going up to day to muswellbrook to see a friend and then see annette also, it is a nice day here, but chilli a little.

well hopefull this week at ww will show a difference in my weight..

I can not do what I am doing and keep Positive:))

2010-04-19T16:21:00.000-07:00

Going to Mass at Muswellbrook for a Blessing for the St John Vianney prayer Group was wonderful, Fr James, give the blessing and said a beautiful mass,our photos on the steps of St James Catholic Chruch Muswellbrook...

This group is open to every one, one prayer and one sacrifice, for all priests all over the world, they need our prayers and sacrifices, for they struggle, for those that have fallen, need our prayers also, they are only human.. we need our priest, for with out them we would not suvive, with out Mass, councilling, and reconcillation..it is a great sacrement, we all need it.

If you are interest in joining this group, please by all means let me know and I can get the forms to you.
we will all continue to pray for each other

God bless

Todays a new day....

2010-02-07T21:15:00.000-08:00

Even though last week was bad, this week will be better, going to the Dr in the morning to see why i have this cough after six months...didn't sleep last night and was very high with a fever and temp. but today is a bit better.

The weight is finally coming off last week I lost another .7 and felt good, going to be a good week again this week, I have been walking each day, bar one day for heavy rains, today I will go out in the evening as it is boiling hot again today,we had to put the AC on and cool the play down,but more storms and rain are predicted,I dont mind the storms I like to listern to the rain on the roof top..

Have an appointment with the diabetetic specilist on thrusday and not looking forward to that, I suppose I will face the music when it happens, will let you know the out come, later on in the week.

Georgina is proud of her baby chrickens she has five, they are the dearest little pets, and Clementine is still proud stroting around with her two baby, who are now four months old.

well all from me for now will go to my other journal and write in it....hope all have a blessed week

Joanne xx

Today is another day:)

2010-01-19T14:34:00.000-08:00

After my out bust yesterday with temper flying, cloths flying, books flying, I think I have calmed down a bit, only a bit, still not sure about what is happening with my weight, haven't been walking, just so how am I supposed to lose weight, today I will walk even if it is 10 min, and I will stay calm , even if it is 20 Min's,do my spiritual meditations and block people out, is the way to go today.have time out for my self...after yesterday maybe I should!!!:( my poor husband is still in shock how I let fly...:(

At long last my parcels arrived yesterday for me I have brought the most beautiful pink Teddy for my cousin who had a little girl last month, I am late to send it but I know she will appreciate it when it dose finally arrive ...girls are special, but boys are special also,but I just love babies, and till my dying day I will love babies, something calming and special about them, like a kitten...if only i HAD A KITTEN .but no more..

I have not be keeping a track of my weight what I have been eating this week, it is shocking,but will get back into today weigh in tomorrow...

Well David and my self and Ben are going out for lunch to day to maitland to Hogs breath cafe, to meet a friend, it should be nice and to catch up and be happy.

No more from me I had better go clean my bed room and get dressed and be happy....and enjoy my lunch.

I WONT LET THIS UPSET GET ME DOWN....

2010-01-18T15:19:00.000-08:00

Well the last 24 hours have been drooling. and I don't think I could be more sadder than I am, but life goes on, and despite what that person said about me, I keep going, I am not going to let some one be under minding say I hide behind my religion...I am only human, I have faults also,so I made a decision this morning, and I think it is a good one, I deactivated my face book, and am going to focused on other areas of my life, like walking, and getting this weight off, this is for me no one else the rest of the world can go to hell, and what I do is my business, I am my own person, I had for two long in my younger days of people running my life and telling me how I should live,no more,I am not standing for it any more,yes I am angry..but for a good reason,and I am taking a stand,and if any one wants to say things about me like they have, they are going to be in for a big shock.

Despite me sleeping in this morning, it has put me back, but I will go and have a shower now and do what I have to do ..and enjoy what I have to do...and not give a thought any more to what has happened,just in my prayers pray for that person,,,or persons..

On a brighter note, am looking into going on retreat, with a friend some time this year, looking around where somewhere closer to home,and have few days away...which will be good, but in the meantime looking forward to going on the cruise in may,so am just focusing on that for now, and nothing else..

Have a peaceful day:)

Sunday afternoon

2010-01-16T21:30:00.000-08:00

I should be cleaning my bed room, for weeks I have looked at a pile of stuff next the bed and it just lies there, I am going to get rid of it if it is the last thing I do. my daughter cleaned my bed room a few weeks ago so my job was to clean out draws and get rid of rubbish, but I have to admit I have been a bit depressed the last two days, and I shouldnt have,just been pure lazy, in my pray life and my blogging and other stuff, so I have to pick up my feet and get moving again, no excuse.
I am going on a cruise in May with my husband, so I dont have time to lay around and feel sorry for my self, I have to count my points and eat right and be positive,I need to get some kgs off before we sail off..it will be so good to go away for 10 days on our own, our youngest son Ben thinks it will be good not to have mum and day around!! more on the cruise later.
This week I am hoping to get a kg off I have been walking but today been so hot no walk, I do have to get my bumb off this chair after writing and go up to franklins and get some thing for tea, maybe a salad, my friend is coming to stay the night .
that will be good , looking forward to a few laughts very far and few of them lately...
My son Ben went to see Wicked today in sydney with his sister chloe,no doubt he will come home happy as larry and give up every detail of the show, loves life ben and enjoys every thing that is going.
Well enough from me now, I had better go and do this shop, drat hate going out in this shit of a heat..it is horrible.but it could be worse,,
till next time
have a good week.

its going to be a good year

2010-01-14T02:19:00.000-08:00

so far this week I have had a up and down week, but to my dismay I did well at ww this week I followed my points and I walked and lost .7 so am so happy with that, it is going to be a good year, positive, I know it will be up and down but all in all its going to be good.

Going on a cruise in May so I have all the challange to lose weight and go and get a new cloths so that is my challange, and yes I can do it/

I have been counting my points on the net on the ww site and it is a great help i just love it

well till later
be Happy;)

2010-01-08T03:36:00.000-08:00

I Have had a good week, though did put weight on at ww, but it was christmas and I only put on ,7 so that is quite good, but this week I am going back to the points and walk each day./

Today was a good day except for my sugars dropping really low, which makes me feel shocking, then for the rest of the day I am sort of out of it!!but tonight it is good and I am feeling my old self again,please God my sugarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrw will behave tomorrow!!
Tomorrow I am off to muswellbrook early in the morning to mass and confession, good for the soul

We are supposed to have a very hot weekend, drats I hate the heat,but will behave my self and keep cool
till next time bye for now

Happy new year

2009-12-31T15:41:00.000-08:00

It is NEW YEARS DAY HERE, I am sitting at the computer on my own and all the family are still asleep..may I add it is neally 11am. I didnt stay up to see the new year in, I was just to tied, and feeling yack, but now it is a new year that is behind me now and I am going to be more kinder and gentle with my self, walk evey day!!!!even if the house is untidy, just put my shoes on and my ipod on and walk dont think about it just do it...

My sugars are bad, but once I get into a routine and do what I am suppose to do I will be better for it, with the Grace of God he and I can do this together,with OUT GOD I AM NOTHING.

Our christmas was nice a quite one we had christmas lunch at home together as a family (see picture above) and then in the afternoon we visited friends,then went down to davids family for tea, that was shocking, some people can be so rude and hurtful esp when it was christmas, all the family receive money off the father except his only son david, very hurtful, I dont stand for that, next year we are doing our own thing, might even consider going overseas if we can save up in time.our daughter will be over there next year..

I have relised life is to short for negative people in our life, we need to be around positive people, who will love us for how we are and support us,that is what I am doing this year, to stay with positive people and not let people boss me and tell me how to life my life...

I pray every one has a wonderful new year love Joanne

A new day

2009-12-03T02:52:00.000-08:00

well after been away from ww for sick weeks due to illness , I went back and joined up again, and to my amazing I had lost over the six weeks 1 .4 kg so I aM on the mark where I can now start again and feel positive.

so today is a new day a new week and each day I have to learn to focus and trust in God to get me though it. It will get hard, and it will be difficult, but I have to keep going.so I will post again when I have some new news
thanks for support

I AM STRUGGLING IN MORE WAYS THAN ONE, AND AM FED UP/

2009-11-21T14:29:00.000-08:00

Maybe I have to learn to be patient with my self, after the last few weeks I HAVE been struggling with health issues, more than one, I am honestly over it. Now I have Pleurisy and Bronchitis, and this heat isn't helping.

My question is do I continue to keep going to weight watches or do I just forget about it till I am feeling back to my old self, well IF I give up now the weight that I have lost will come back on again,wont it? The thing is I need some one to get me and make me do it walk , well in this heat to walk would be deadly, the last two days have been 45deg, to much to bear,
but then one has to learnt to discipline them self's and say yes you can do it and you will do it!!

WELL THE TRUTH IS..............I am struggling struggling with health issues, spiritual issues,and marriage issues, so I turn to God and hope that maybe he can calm me down and just teach me to be still and listen.

So tomorrow is another day, I will start again tomorrow,with the help of God
Thank you for dropping by.

Just one more black slide....

2009-11-07T05:21:00.000-08:00

I haven't been to ww for two weeks! not I ended up so ill at the Dr's with a shocking cough, the flu (hoping it wasn't swine flu) and Asama's which i haven never had before told to go home and stay home for two weeks don't go any where!! so I did, and well I am on the mend, still very tied, and just plodding around...I HAVE noticed I have been eating what I should be and by my scales I have lost 2kg so I am hoping when I go back to ww IT shows also!, it is easy to get out of the way we do thing,.and I HAVE been walking with my ipod, but with the cortisone tablets to help me breath they make your face round..well I am off them now.
So Monday is another start of the week and I am back on track...I have to be gentle with my self and not beat my self up so much.

THANK YOU TO THE two girls who drop by my last post and comment I appreciate your support and will keep in touch great to get feed back it makes me want to keep going..

Well I guess I really should finish up and go to be it is 12 30 in the morning far to late for me to be up ...
will be intouch again soon, love Joanne

Starting to feel like is this worth it all?

2009-10-15T01:48:00.000-07:00

I went to ww today and put on .4 God I can not win, OK So I didn't try, I didn't walk, I didn't follow points, I just have lost it, I am losing interest. it is all to much I am struggling...I need some encouragement..I don't know what I need, just am down and feel is it worth it all.

I went to the Diabetic specialist and she wants to see me in another three months...with more weight off and my sugar down further. it is all just to hard. well I am throwing the towel in but I feel just horrible, struggle and well not well, tied and still am picking up from my shoulder op, even though it is five weeks, the pain is still there and Physio each week...

EACH day is a Terrible struggle, with pain ...with motivation and you name it ..I think I have lost the plot...I don't know what to do..I just wish I had a personal trainer..some one that took interest in my weight lost that encouraged me each day to get off my bum and go walking. I must admit my son brought me and Ipod to encourage me to go walking..and yes I will
but I am feeling spiritual dead also at the moment.

God I you take an interest in my life but can you please show me where I am going wrong. or what should I do to get motivation...Maybe I should go and do a retreat...maybe I should just lock my self away for a month ...what ever it is I should do I need some one to please help me.

Dont you feel some days are just so hard ....that no matter what you do you just can not win? well this is how I feel today...maybe tomorrow I will have a different attitude...with the help of God...
catch you later love Joanne

family reunion

2009-10-10T00:04:00.000-07:00

our family reunion was just so good and here is a photo of the collage which I did, I met family member which I have met before and it was just a wonderful day...and to think in 8 weeks of not going to weight watches I only put on.5 so am happy with my self.

life is a challange at the moment!!!

2009-09-22T20:38:00.000-07:00

The last few weeks have been a challenge, and still are! two weeks ago I had my shoulder operated on and didn't come out of the anapestic very well all day was out to it, to wake up that night throwing up from the medications, and so so tied, I was discharged the next morning, still vomiting, so much for Private hospitals. My sugars were out of wacko and I was just weak and sick on the stomach for three day s...it turns out they gave me medications which I WAS allergic to great really great...ended up at the Dr's on the Monday and he was no help just said go hand and rest and do nothing for two weeks. So that is what I have been doing, even though I feel a bit better...I did get up this morning and ended up going back to bed for three hours and sleeping, so I must have needed it.

My weight is OK even though I haven't been back to ww I feel I needed a break will go back at the beginning of September and start again, I haven't put on so that is good but I must get into walking again as soon AS I am strong again, TODAY is a SHOCKING DAY, the weather is so wild and we are having a dust storm, and it is horrible a bad day to go out side, it is all over the state.

I have a family reunion to go to in a week so am looking forward to that..thank God my Depression has lifted, and I am able to cope with large crowds. thank God for that and for all my friends who are so supported...

Well until next time,

Cheers

Joanne

just for today

2009-09-12T19:28:00.000-07:00

1. TODAY I WILL NOT STRIKE BACK: If someone is rude, if someone is impatient, if someone is unkind... I will not respond in a like manner.2. TODAY I WILL ASK GOD TO BLESS MY 'ENEMY': If I come across someone who treats me harshly or unfairly, I will quietly ask God to bless that individual. I understand the 'enemy' could be a family member, neighbor, co-worker, or a stranger.3. TODAY I WILL BE CAREFUL ABOUT WHAT I SAY:I will carefully choose and guard my words being certain that I do not spread gossip.4. TODAY I WILL GO THE EXTRA MILE: I will find ways to help share the burden of another person.5. TODAY I WILL FORGIVE: I will forgive any hurts or injuries that come my way.6. TODAY I WILL DO SOMETHING NICE FOR SOMEONE, BUT I WILL DO IT SECRETLY: I will reach out anonymously and bless the life of another.7. TODAY I WILL TREAT OTHERS THE WAY I WISH TO BE TREATED: I will practice the golden rule - 'Do unto others as I would have them do unto me' - with everyone I encounter.8. TODAY I WILL RAISE THE SPIRITS OF SOMEONE I DISCOURAGED: My smile, my words, my expression of support, can make the difference to someone who is wrestling life.9. TODAY I WILL NURTURE MY BODY: I will eat less; I will eat only healthy foods. I will thank God for my body.10. TODAY I WILL GROW SPIRITUALLY:I will spend a little more time in prayer today:I will begin reading something spiritual or inspirational today;I will find a quiet place (at some point during the day) and listen to God's voice!-- Author Unknown

IT IS A CHALLNAGE,BUT I CAN DO IT I KNOW I CAN

2009-08-13T22:10:00.000-07:00

I am on track it is a slow challange, but for the last three weeks, I have lost .2 each week it all adds up, and to do it little by little even though it is very challangening it feels GOOD...and to have support from so many wonderful friends, it keeps you going..I know some days I get down but I am up again dont stay down for long.

I am off to hospital om the 9th september for shoulder sugery. only over night please God but to be out of pain will be so good it is a three month to get over it so that also will be a challange but I am good at challnagers lol somt time:)

A BEAUTIFUL DAY HERE TODAY it is like spring. it is supposed to get to 26 on the weekend. which will be so good to get out and enjoy doing gardening and going walking.and taking photos..

well till later I will go and get my letter writing in order

Trying to Get back on track again..

2009-07-06T20:26:00.000-07:00

It has been some time since I have written up how I am going with my weight watches, but I am hoping to go to the meeting this Thursday, I have been losing weight, last fortnight I lost.4 but I am being challenged by my son now and daughter if I lost 10kegs in 13 weeks s Shannon will give me $40 and Chloe a new pair of shoes to wear to the family reunion in October back at Young...well I can not fall on that now can I ?? so I have tyred to get back into walking and am counting my points, ww is the best way to go when losing weight great support and very friendly people..and I must say I have made some wonderful friends.

Even though I have had the last three days feeling flat I did get my bed room clean today, and that has made me a bit better...but despite my down feeling I am still just taking one day at a time and hoping tomorrow might be a brighter day...I have to learn to be gentle with my self and just do what I can on days like this...(unless you suffer with depression you have no idea what it feels like to be in a dark hole!)

I am trying to start up my own photo shot as doing photos of flowers and people etc to do on cards to sell I do love taking photos, but my failing is I can spend all day on the computer and get nothing Else done, but if I am doing what I like it is good I suppose...

The grocery shopping has to be done today, and bills payed, so I guess sitting here isn't going to get that done, thank God for DAVID he will take me up town and help with the shopping, I am very blessed with a wonderful husband, and three beautiful children..Shannon is turning 19 on Friday so we will take him out for lunch he wants to go to the pub, where they give a beautiful meal..

Chloe is coming home this Thursday so we are happy about that it is always wonderful to see her, it keeps my mind busy when I have family home..

Well on that note I hope all have a lovely week and I will write again soon

God bless to all

Joanne

2009-06-21T20:02:00.001-07:00

On our cruise we had a wonderful time more later

Had a good loss this week yah

2009-04-15T22:11:00.000-07:00

IT is starting to pay off again I lost 1.8 this week and I feel good, ah it pays off when you count the points and walk, even though I can not walk much with my bad knee, I am trying.that is the main thing.

The weather has been beautiful the last few days like spring weather good to get the cloths dry, and also do house work.

It IS ONLY 6 weeks till the cruise and I am so looking forward to it..IT will be so good to get away for 10 days ah and just be waited on and not have to cook or do a thing..

so I struggle on and the positive attuide helps and all the wonderful friends that are helping me along the way
Hope all are having a good week.

Easter (Good friday)

2009-04-09T16:47:00.000-07:00

It is a long journey with my weight but I am determined to do it. My daughter and two sons are encouragement s me to the point my eldest son Shannon is training me to make me walk at least twice a day, well so far am walking once a day, and I have been tracking with my points...

Each day is a challenge but I am going to do it ..if it takes me another two years...

\Easter is upon us and I am going to the 3pm mass and then the 7pm mass tomorrow night..faith plays a big part in my life, with OUT GOD I wouldn't be where I am today, so blessed with friends and family, and I thank God each day for them..

Sunday we are heading down to Sydney to see manly play against the west tigers, so am looking forward to that and having a day out Sunday with the family , Chloe wont be coming as she is going to a wedding..

well all from me for now will blog again after Easter with more family photos

thank you for your support, keeping you in my prayers this Easter,

Being gentle with my self .life is so much better.....

2009-03-22T01:56:00.000-07:00

When I have had a good week, I can cope, when I am gentle with my self and not beat my self up and let God take over, I am a different person, calm.loving and just my self where I can go from day to day and be blessed and know I can not do it with out GOD, AND SO THIS WEEK has bee like this for me. I did put on .2 but that is OK I didn't walk,. I was lazy and this week I am going to walk and walk and walk and drink lots of soup the points 0 soup,and count my points. no matter what!!! ah that is where I go wrong when I don't count my points i fall big time. the points work...

I HAVE BEEN BUSY THIS WEEK with and my camera course which I am loving and my computer cause which I am also loving and am really learning so much esp with the digital camera cause ...i feel alive when I am taking photos and I feel the presence OF God when I am taking beautiful photos I will enclose some photos for you to look at.

Tomorrow night I am heading out to the Lenten group which is also very good. it is hard to believe Easter is Nealy upon us......I don't know where this year is going. a bit scary.....

My friend starts chemo next week she has just being diagnosed with cervical cancer please keep her in your prayers./

WELL all from me for now hope all have a great week,

Joanne

yah lost weight this week

2009-03-11T23:10:00.000-07:00

I lost 1.9 kg this week so am so happy with my self, I don't know what I did, I think I just didn't stress out made 0points soup and ate that a lot which is very filling...ah feel like I am on top again

Had my toe nail removed today so not going to Tafe tonight, resting up the anaesthetic is wearing off ouch....I will be OK though wont be in that much pain like I was...still feeling unwell. but I am going to to just rest and keep destressing.

Hope every one had a good week

Joanne

So I didnt do so well again this week!!

2009-03-05T19:02:00.000-08:00

well I dint do so well again this week! but I am not going to let it get me down, I put on 1.2kg...if I am going to dwell over it I will never get back on track, so today is another day, I am going to just concentrate on my walking, drinking my water, being positive, put behind the past and start again.

Thank God it is the weekend, even though we are not doing much I might just try and get my bedroom up to a clean state, it is not that bad, but i HAVE lost my cord to my mobile phone to recharge so there for I don't have a mobile phone well maybe that is a good thing, seeing its lent.and the less I have to do with phones the more I can be positive on doing what I have to do as in losing weight and being cheerful to every comes my way.

Going to the Dr THIS afternoon as my toe is still infected, this is getting beyond a joke more antibiotics, which I hate taking.

After my walk this morning which was 60 min walk I come home and collapse with my knee it is so painful but I was determined to keep walking I am not going to let the scales beat me next week.

Well all for now hope you all have a wonderful weekend...:)

Early hours of the Morning

2009-03-01T09:02:00.000-08:00

it is after four in the morning being awake since 2am just can not sleep

feeling sick in the stomach and just out of sorts......my sugar is up so have

taken more insulin, to try and bring it down...life is a challenge when you have

to try and get your sugars down get your weight down and just keep alive/

I need to relax think beautiful thoughts life each hour as if it is going to be my last

be positive,stay away from negative people. I can only live one day at a time or maybe one

hour at a time, if I do this I should be OK if I don't think of tomorrow and leave yesterday behind

If I just relax in Gods presents,smell the flowers the roses and go for gentle walks and pray my

knee dose not buckle in altogether..If I go and sit in the church in front of the blessed

sacrament and just know that no matter what happens God and I can do this together.

And he will not give me more than I can handle. I do have so much to be thankful for, my

wonderful friends, my Family, just being alive and being able to walk and breath and feel

God love....

Have a Blessed week

Today is another day

2009-02-26T19:42:00.000-08:00

EVEN THOUGH I have had a masive fight with my hubby I dont feel any better for it so went to mass and was annointed and fr spoke on saying sorry so if that wasnt God speaking I eat my words.
Depite me feeling down this afternoon I am feeling a bit more bright, just put tea on as we have to do our computer course tonight at 6 till 9 at least that gets me out of the house...havent eaten much today but for tea having salmon patties, which I love with salad...have decided to go to drinking water instead of the sada water, see how I go there.
I will get up early in the morning and go for a walk take buster, if I start early it might get my mood in a better frame...
Life is a challange and with lent now it is a good time for me to take a good look at my life, besides my weight...I can do it AND I will do it ...
well till tomorrow bye for now hope all have a great weekend

Joanne

somthing different

2009-02-26T03:29:00.000-08:00

I was bored tonight upset so I did this photos shot I am enjoying my digtial camera cause
looking forward to doing more photo shots

weigh in Day

2009-02-25T15:10:00.000-08:00

well I wasnt going to go and get weighed but I did and I felt I had lost at least.5 but to my dissapointment I put on 1kg ouch that is bad, and when I got back into the car and told david he said no way that is not possible but that is what the scales say the last three weeks I have gained weight and I am not at all happy but I have been tracking and eating 0 soup so where in the hell have I gone wrong, havent been able to walk as for myknee so I dont know..so I am going to track again not go and get weighed next week as I have an appointment when ww is on so will cut back on points
any other suggestions? please help!

Joanne

My heart isnt in it any more..

2009-02-24T02:39:00.000-08:00

Trying to get my self up to scratch again with the weight seems an every daunting task, now I am unable to walk well the Dr told me I should stay off my leg as much as possible as my knee has been damaged from the fall ..so have to go to the specialist on the 14Th April, and my toe yes it is infected again and more antibiotics and tonight after two days on antibiotics my toe still very swollen and very painful. when it clears up I need to have it cut out the nail that is!!! Never ending with me. I thought life was going to be so much simply when I started to get the weight off but no the medications I am on no doubt is slowing it down...it is frustrating me big time...

Wondering if I should go and get weighed this Thursday! when I am supposed to be resting this leg and not walking on it...I was told the more I walk on it the more damage I will do ..can not win..

It may seem I am making excuses but no I am not I looked back at the photos of how I looked before The weight came off and boy I have come a long way so I have to be gentle with my self and just keep hacking at it despite down falls, no matter what I will get it off Just want to get to the 10% and I will be happy.

Tomorrow is Ash Wednesday the beginning of lent so I am going to really try and improve in my spiritual journeyand pray life

Praying for you all..

Joanne

A day OF rest

2009-02-21T19:21:00.000-08:00

Yesterday a few of us from our parish went out to say by to fr Matthew we had a nice lunch and what I ate I didnt feel guility I had a salad with salmon patties and they were very nice..a nice day and then this morning david and I went to 7am Mass and said goodbye to FR as it was his last mass in the parish, we stopped by for a cuppa afterwards, despite me being in heaps of pain in my leg leg with a infected toe and now my knee when I had a fall a few weeks ago and now the knee is playing up on presure...but I am walking if I go down so be it..looks like I will have to go and see the dr in the morning..as much as I dont want to . I have to go my sugars are still up graaaaaaaaa....and can not get into the specilist till the 27th march 3 30pm. so besides all this I am still smiling, and do feel ok in my self the depression has left me ..so it jolly should..

I am back to counting my points and watching all that goes in my mouth, I made a o free soup so that is helping...today is good but it isnt the end of the day yet.....heading up to visit a friend this afternoon who has been digonased with cancer, she goes into hospital wednesday for an operation, please God they can get it all. cancer seems to be so much today it is scary..

Can any one help me please/ ? I dont know how to go about putting my photos on the side and my weight as the weeks go by could any one help me and tell me would really appriciate it .

Well all for now better go and visit this friend..
all have a great week

Joanne

life is a challange and some days I dont like it!!

2009-02-20T12:38:00.000-08:00

I am still feeling blah and I know I shouldn't be, my infection in the toe is improving, I don't have to go and get more tablets as I rang the nurse up yesterday and she said just bath it in hot salt water so that has helped heaps,but am still feeling unwell and just down, I am tied of being told by my Dr its depression...well what ever it is I have to just sit it out, and if I am tied and need to sleep I will sleep, like yesterday I slept all afternoon and, didn't feel better for it though, I have to try and just be more Gentle with my self and just take one day at a time..it is hard, BUT I have to learn Rome wasn't built in a day.

My weight is driving me mad, I just want to get to the 10% and I will be happy but it is up and down one week I will lose over a kg and then the next put on .7 its very frustrating, and I am thinking this week I will have a break not go to ww just get back to the quick start and see how I go.,while I am thinking like this Its no good me going.

I started my Digital camera course on Thursday night I really enjoyed it, and last night started my computer course it was OK next week should be better..it was just the basic and a bit boring.

Life is a challenge, next week it is the beginning of Lent Goodness where has the year gone? we just got over Christmas!

Hope you all have a good week and we can inspire each other with our weight lost ( a better one for me in a few weeks)

Joanne

not a good weigh in

2009-02-18T18:58:00.000-08:00

Today I went in to weigh, to my shame I put on .4 and then they said they made a mistake last week said instead of .2 she made the mistake of .7 I put on last week,um unimpressed.
well this week I have to just move and not think about it and get it off ,weeks ARE getting away and I need to at least reach my 10% at least it is taking me far to long to lose but then am on medication .and cortosine for my back so can not win I was going so well in the beginning I dont know what is going on now...o well next week we will see a move down on the scales.

The weather is starting to get warmer again, it is quite hot this afternoon./I have my first lesson at tafe tonight in digitial camera, so looking forward to it.
and then tomorrow night I have a computer course so am quite looking forward to that and I am doing that with david.

well no much more for now will write later
Joanne

More Positive Today

2009-02-14T02:05:00.000-08:00

am more positive today, even though I am still very tied, not as tied, i thought TO my self Joanne you can not stay down it is not like you...today is another day just be positive and stop
thinking of the negativc stuff.

We have had rain for the last few days, it is very heavy tonight, might flood, there is an alert been put out for the Hunter,,so we will stay tuned.

Have been doing my points, a bit off tract today, will get back on them tomorrow..I know I can do it.

A WONERFUL FRIEND WAS speaking to me last night and he has been a friend for 29 yearsm he is a cahtolic priest, he prayed for me to help me feel better, my goodness the power of prayer is just so wonerful. That is why I am feeling more positive I am sure..well I amfeeling better.
I love the weekends when it rains havent seen that much rain but this weekend it is just fantastic and really loving it

Well on that note I will go and keep being positive
Thank God for all the wonerful friends I have

bye for now

Joanne xx

Another bad Day

2009-02-12T19:13:00.000-08:00

I tyred to stay positive even though I have ha two ba ays, so this morning I got up an bang down I go again, very tied aching all over again and massive headache, it could be the Polomoligia back again, I don't know, but what ever it is it is making me tied an sleeping all day... to put it mildly I feel shit...and to go with it I am feeling depressed.
How do I get out of it? just take one day at a time. listen to body and just pray I start to feel better,I know I have had days like this before and I know I have to just sit them out..but when they go on for three days like now it is horrible....it could be stress that brings them on, things on the home front are not good so that could be a cause of it..what every it is I just have to learn one hour at a time. and know I will come through this, but for now I have to try and do my prayer exercises and try and be gentle with my self and not take it out on every one Else....but My God its very hard to do it...
As for my weight I haven't been walking as I am to weak, and scared of passing out, but have try ed to follow the points and eat what I am supposed to eat, even though my appetite has gone..(stress will do that):(

Well maybe tomorrow will be a better day, please pray it will be,until then I will continue to hang on the love that God has for me and know he walks the journey with me.

photos of my weight lost since april last year

2009-02-12T03:47:00.000-08:00

some photos of how I looked before I started ww well when I look at these yes I have lost weight!

2009-02-11T23:14:00.001-08:00

feeling very down...

2009-02-11T21:22:00.000-08:00

Hasnt beeN A GOOD DAY, WELL the last two days have been shocking, sugars up out of wack and tied, irritable and fed up with life in General,I dont usual give up but this time I feel horrible just tied, the last two days I have just slept wont speak to the family ect..

Went into get weighed today, put on .2.but that is ok but I followered the points and drank water soda water,I am now 90.3 but the girl put in my book .I am now 90.8 that made me so mad well I guess I will get over it ...well I will try better this week and try and an get positive again, just trying to get my sugars down is the problem
till next time
Joanne

HAPPY WITH MY LOSS

2009-02-06T18:04:00.000-08:00

I have had a good week, went to weight watches, and I lost 1.1kg, so I am on track again and am so thankful for all the support I am getting.

I was down there for a while as the weight was slowing creaping back on and I knew in my heart I had to get back to tracking and wow has it worked so back to tracking and doing what I am supposed to do, I have not been able to walk as the weather has been far to hot, we are expecting high temps and today is shocking but tomorrow is suppose to get to 47 God help us all...I am staying in side and not going to do much..the heat makes one feel quite sick..!!

Being positve and staying around postive people helps me so much to the point now when people ring me and talk negative I dismiss them in a big time, just can not handle them...so I just contine to stay still and listern to what my soul is telling me.

It is lovely to have my family all home this week end, even though Chloe has to go back to Newcastle this afternoon but for now I am enjoying her being home..

Yesteray we got a New kitten, she is so beautiful her we have called her Mollie, an her name suites her, big time..

The dogs are not impressed about the new kitten so we have kept her in side, she is has such a beautiful nature, and has settled into her new home very well..SO NOW we have five animals two little chickens two ogs an the kitten a lot to have to get minde when we go on our cruise in may, but for now we will enjoy them, for this heat I think we are going to have to put the dogs in side tomrrow as it will be to hot ,,

Well for now thanks for coming by I will up date you later on my weight but for now Have a great weekend

God bless

Joanne xx